CherrySlushie91
Well-known member
I'm considering going back to my college. I'm worried sick about it though and can't even get up the courage to call and register, because i know once i do i'll be trapped and i'm scared i'll be miserable. I kind of left things a mess cause i didn't plan to go back after the baby was born. The last few weeks i had a falling out with my friends and became very depressed, needless to say my GPA dropped and i lost my scholarships. I don't want to be remembered as the pregnant chick lol, I don't want to see my friends happy without me and to be all alone there. I don't want to be the person in the background again. Even if i do go back and everything goes wrong i won't have smoking to fall back on (3 months smoke free ), i just feel so anxious about it. I want to go back and i want to succeed, i just need to courage. it would save me from student loans, i'd be getting out of the house.....its a good thing, just it can go very wrong. The saddest part is i don't have time to worry about it, classes start on the 4th, its now or never. ugh......