LostInLimbo
Active member
So yeah I've had an account on here in the past, though I thought I would start over and try one more time. I've dealt with depression most of my life, and I firmly believe it's the results of loneliness. Whenever I make friends I always lose them for one reason or another, and I basically spend all day every day sitting alone in my room. In the past it was always because of moving so often, and now it's because I let my depression and anxiety get in the way and either push people away or they simply give up on me. I've spent the last 2 or 3 years trying to meet people online, though no matter how many people I seem to meet it just isn't the same as having someone around in person. My anxiety also continues to get worse, which is just making everything else worse. Up until a few days ago I hadn't even been outside since around October of last year, and other than simply going for a drive I can't seem to push myself to do much else. The only way I can talk to someone anymore (whether face to face or some sort of voice or video chat) is if I feel comfortable with them, which means I just don't talk to anyone.
I guess I just want to try and meet someone that might actually live around the same area as me, I won't be specific here but I will say that I live in New York. I don't expect it to happen to be honest, as no matter how many different forums I've tried I have not met anyone that's really close to where I live. So I guess it would be nice to at least make a good friend on here, if that can even happen. I'm not really into much anymore other than music and gaming, so I guess anyone I meet would really need to be into games since I usually don't have much else to talk about. I also write poems from time to time, though they're always about how I'm feeling so they're all depressing. I doubt I will be too active here, so if anyone is interested in chatting please message me. I added some things to my profile just in case anyone wants to look, it's not much but I at least wanted to put a few things I actually still enjoy.
I guess I just want to try and meet someone that might actually live around the same area as me, I won't be specific here but I will say that I live in New York. I don't expect it to happen to be honest, as no matter how many different forums I've tried I have not met anyone that's really close to where I live. So I guess it would be nice to at least make a good friend on here, if that can even happen. I'm not really into much anymore other than music and gaming, so I guess anyone I meet would really need to be into games since I usually don't have much else to talk about. I also write poems from time to time, though they're always about how I'm feeling so they're all depressing. I doubt I will be too active here, so if anyone is interested in chatting please message me. I added some things to my profile just in case anyone wants to look, it's not much but I at least wanted to put a few things I actually still enjoy.