I had this kind of weird strong belief since i was a kid, i believed that God, Allah or what ever you wanna call this powerful energy that we are made of created us all with different measures of emotions to be experianced in a life time journy, NOT ONLY LOVE BUT EVERY SINGLE EMOTION HUMAN BEING CAN EXPERIANCE is already measured to each individual, we individually can feel to a certain limit , in my case i ran out of love..♥♥
you might think this is funny but it isnt i mean every word, if you have a bottle of water and you keep consuming the water in it eventually the water will run out whether you consume it slowly resulting in the water filling the bottle for longer time or consume it fast resulting the water to run out quicker leaving the bottle an empty can that lost it is original use of keeping the water.
I consumed all the love feelings im meant to feel in my life time pretty quick, i loved and loved and bleeded in love til i ran out of it, there wasnt any more love in me to give no matter how hard i tried it just wouldnt work, im now like that bottle of water just empty..
Im not sure if i knew any better back then that i will love less or not love at all , i probably will gladly fall in love with the same person and give up my emotions for him all over again knowing that he will leave me (passed away) empty and i will have to go through years of emptiness lost and confused... it felt so good and the pain after it wouldnt make me forget how good it was (being crazy in love)
Now after years of emptiness im trying hard to switch off this button that will fill me up with feelings again but i cant, im drained.
It doesnt mean that i dont feel, i do feel lots of sorts of different emotions with different strength levels but not love..
Not as i knew it, shame on you love i once was your loyal worshiper.
I keep comparing between how i felt towards that one person to how i feel towards anyone else and as soon as i do that i figure out i cant be in love cause love doesnt feel that way, love is great and strong and a motive to give up your entire existance for but what i feel towards any guy now can be labeled as liking ..
So , really my question is, for those who really fell in love, is there is a cure ? did you find love again or you all like me just empty?
If you are empty then how do you work out relationships without love, is caring and being there is enough?
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P.s my English isnt great , hope you understood me.
you might think this is funny but it isnt i mean every word, if you have a bottle of water and you keep consuming the water in it eventually the water will run out whether you consume it slowly resulting in the water filling the bottle for longer time or consume it fast resulting the water to run out quicker leaving the bottle an empty can that lost it is original use of keeping the water.
I consumed all the love feelings im meant to feel in my life time pretty quick, i loved and loved and bleeded in love til i ran out of it, there wasnt any more love in me to give no matter how hard i tried it just wouldnt work, im now like that bottle of water just empty..
Im not sure if i knew any better back then that i will love less or not love at all , i probably will gladly fall in love with the same person and give up my emotions for him all over again knowing that he will leave me (passed away) empty and i will have to go through years of emptiness lost and confused... it felt so good and the pain after it wouldnt make me forget how good it was (being crazy in love)
Now after years of emptiness im trying hard to switch off this button that will fill me up with feelings again but i cant, im drained.
It doesnt mean that i dont feel, i do feel lots of sorts of different emotions with different strength levels but not love..
Not as i knew it, shame on you love i once was your loyal worshiper.
I keep comparing between how i felt towards that one person to how i feel towards anyone else and as soon as i do that i figure out i cant be in love cause love doesnt feel that way, love is great and strong and a motive to give up your entire existance for but what i feel towards any guy now can be labeled as liking ..
So , really my question is, for those who really fell in love, is there is a cure ? did you find love again or you all like me just empty?
If you are empty then how do you work out relationships without love, is caring and being there is enough?
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P.s my English isnt great , hope you understood me.