dn560
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i just feel really depressed today just reflection on the things i have done or havent been able to accomplish due to all the sicknesses and low self esteem. i keep asking myself why does all this have to happen to me, what did i do to deserve this messed up life? i hardly drink i dont smoke hell im in church at least 3 sundays for the month and i havent seen honeysuckle change. my family just bashes me and overlooks the fact that i push my dying ass to the limit yet praise my sister for petty honeysuckle and kick me down. i feel like im a ******* disappointment anything i do turns into honeysuckle, im stress, balding and skinny like a freakin twig, i have no friends i pretty much talk to myself now when i listen music i ******* break down in tears, i cry at night and i just wonder what the fresia is the point of living? when will this ******* dark phase end? i been trying to pull the pieces together but it just backfires, i tried making new friends but no one wants to talk to the skinny bald guy and well theres a girl i really like but what the fresia am i kidding shes popular shes got tons of good looking guy friends why the fresia would she want to associate herself with a ******* nobody piece of honeysuckle loser like me. i come to terms my education/academics have gone to honeysuckle im starting a new school in september and most likely im not gonna make any friends im gonna be that one loser that sits alone in the cafeteria. ive seen drs, therapists, taken all kinda crap pills and i just feel sad and depressed where is my life going? summer vacation people head off to the beach or to the movies with friends and im in my house all alone just doing house chores like the little bald ***** that i am. i try to be positive but how am i supposed to be positive if positive honeysuckle dont happen? man i dont know where my ******* life is going im 21 now no one gave a fresia about that my birthday was the typical day crappy food and talk to my crazy self my classmates are graduating now and i got kicked out before i even got started, fresia this life i dont even know where the fresia im going with this post i feel like killing myself but i dont wanna die so idk guess i'll never ever be happy....i understand if you read this and think im not worth it its ok i think im not worth it too so we agree on something
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