hiddenleaf
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Hello everyone, just a quick blurb about myself. I'm female, I live in Los Angeles, and I'm 29. I've only lived in L.A. for about a year, and I don't have any close friends yet. I usually find it hard to make friends anywhere I am. I'm really introverted and have tried many times to "put myself out there" but it's always a struggle. I wouldn't say I'm shy. I used to be when I was younger, but I think it's different now. I can approach people and talk to them, but if they don't seem interested I get discouraged. Plus, I feel like I can only handle one-on-one conversations, or groups where I already know someone. I feel like when it comes to meeting new people, it's hard because I'm always the only one at the party who came alone and everyone else came in a pack.
It seems as I get older, it gets harder to be alone. I just feel lonelier. When I was 16, I had this realization that I could go to the movies alone. (Sounds silly, right?) Well, it changed the way I did things. If I didn't have anyone to do things with, that didn't mean that I couldn't still do it. Go to movies, concerts, travel. I feel like I've had a lot of good experiences in my life, seen and done a lot of stuff, but I always feel like something's missing. My photo album isn't full of fun shots with my buddies.
I have a few close friends, but they live in other cities. Even if I did live near them, I have that tendency to do stuff alone because my friends and I don't necessarily like the same movies, music, etc. Plus, I tend to not want to share with them how lonely I feel. I guess I don't want to burden them, or I just don't want them to know. They're always saying how great I seem to be doing, because I have a good job, good place to live, and I get out and do things. But I'm doing most of these things alone, and it tears me up a lot, frankly.
Anyhow, that's just a little about me.
It seems as I get older, it gets harder to be alone. I just feel lonelier. When I was 16, I had this realization that I could go to the movies alone. (Sounds silly, right?) Well, it changed the way I did things. If I didn't have anyone to do things with, that didn't mean that I couldn't still do it. Go to movies, concerts, travel. I feel like I've had a lot of good experiences in my life, seen and done a lot of stuff, but I always feel like something's missing. My photo album isn't full of fun shots with my buddies.
I have a few close friends, but they live in other cities. Even if I did live near them, I have that tendency to do stuff alone because my friends and I don't necessarily like the same movies, music, etc. Plus, I tend to not want to share with them how lonely I feel. I guess I don't want to burden them, or I just don't want them to know. They're always saying how great I seem to be doing, because I have a good job, good place to live, and I get out and do things. But I'm doing most of these things alone, and it tears me up a lot, frankly.
Anyhow, that's just a little about me.