BrokenSoul25
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Hello Everyone,
Being such a lonely individual, it always seems as though no one else in the world is lonely but you. I feel like the most disgusting person on the face of the earth even though I know it's not true. I don't know how to make friends with anyone. I have no family, I'm not in touch with any of my old friends anymore. I won't go anywhere because I'm so self-conscious. All of this has made me a very angry individual. I struggle to get through everyday without abusing myself or crying but I feel like I'm going to go insane. I feel like I'm in jail even though I'm in this great big world. I NEED someone to show me love sooo bad but I can't Make anyone love me. I have such a big heart, all I want to do is love someone and be loved but every social situation I get into is a letdown. I don't know what to do anymore. I have a little boy and I go to school now to better myself but it's so hard to keep going with no support system or "congrats" from anyone. It's like EVERYTHING i do, good or bad, goes unnoticed. I feel invisible. I just want this to be over, life is TERRIBLE. I REALLY hope there is a meaning to it. I also hope I don't die without having truly experienced love from someone other than my child. Why is everyone so cruel and unloving?
It's messed up that we all have to meet like this online instead of having some kind of real life group for people like us. I'm sure there is one somewhere, but nowhere near me.
Being such a lonely individual, it always seems as though no one else in the world is lonely but you. I feel like the most disgusting person on the face of the earth even though I know it's not true. I don't know how to make friends with anyone. I have no family, I'm not in touch with any of my old friends anymore. I won't go anywhere because I'm so self-conscious. All of this has made me a very angry individual. I struggle to get through everyday without abusing myself or crying but I feel like I'm going to go insane. I feel like I'm in jail even though I'm in this great big world. I NEED someone to show me love sooo bad but I can't Make anyone love me. I have such a big heart, all I want to do is love someone and be loved but every social situation I get into is a letdown. I don't know what to do anymore. I have a little boy and I go to school now to better myself but it's so hard to keep going with no support system or "congrats" from anyone. It's like EVERYTHING i do, good or bad, goes unnoticed. I feel invisible. I just want this to be over, life is TERRIBLE. I REALLY hope there is a meaning to it. I also hope I don't die without having truly experienced love from someone other than my child. Why is everyone so cruel and unloving?
It's messed up that we all have to meet like this online instead of having some kind of real life group for people like us. I'm sure there is one somewhere, but nowhere near me.