I signed up here before but couldn't bring myself to post anything. I was trying to pretend everything was okay in my life and felt like coming here begging for help would be defeat. Some of my problems have come from my childhood but mostly from when I lost my hearing. I left school at 16 due to not being able to hear or talk to my friends and teachers then I left my mum who I grew up with last year when I was 18 since we didn't get along.
Right now I live alone and luckily have a good job from skills I taught myself. I don't like where my life is going though and have started taking drugs I never ever thought I would take. I never imagined my life turning out this way and seriously think I'll be dead, in prison or a junkie soon. I don't know what to do. I can't go to bars because communicating with people is impossible in an environment like that with my hearing. All I do now is spend time alone but deep down I don't want to. I hope I can find help here. This might sound desperate but I'm really looking for a father figure or friend. Thank you.
Right now I live alone and luckily have a good job from skills I taught myself. I don't like where my life is going though and have started taking drugs I never ever thought I would take. I never imagined my life turning out this way and seriously think I'll be dead, in prison or a junkie soon. I don't know what to do. I can't go to bars because communicating with people is impossible in an environment like that with my hearing. All I do now is spend time alone but deep down I don't want to. I hope I can find help here. This might sound desperate but I'm really looking for a father figure or friend. Thank you.
