*Sigh* said:
A little dose of "God's plant" will do the trick"
. Haha, I am just kidding. But loneliness is indeed a powerful feeling that is hard to get rid of without the help of others. I am lonely as hell too, usually watching movies dealing with love cheers me up, but it also makes me feel so bitter afterward. But the only thing that I think will cure loneliness is a friendship, and friendship might be something beyond my grasp.
your answer is very inspiring, thanks a lot~
and it reminds me of a movie,"THE FOUNTAIN" 2006, the sap of that life giving tree, and the seed of it.
yes, you hit the point!
and i was and am seeking this seed of this life giving tree, and met a lot of interesting people who know about it a little or a lot. but they all hinted to me that this seed is in the womb of a young girl, and she is sleeping in a cave, and at the entrance of it lies a huge monster, and unless i give this beast an end, i will be ended in this pursuit in this vast desert without any hope of finding it.
and when i asked where i could find this cave all of them become silent, and i kept on asking them till they were bored by my quest. and tell me sadly, unless i die, i could never find this cave, and this cave was called by them with this name, Tomb, and the girl is in the center of coffins, sleeping, maybe doing some snoring sometimes.
i was horrified, and didnot want to die, but the desire of getting rid of my loneliness was so strong that i made up my mind and said to them, "could you offer me some way that i could die painlessly?"
they were amazed, and replied to me sadly, "no such death can achive anything."
i was very upset. but the desire of seeing this beauty in sleep conquered my fear of dying in agony. so i told them, i wanted to die in such a way like a pig looking back to his favorite sty at his last hour before he was slaughtered.
but the poison was not to be found easily, and they told me that only the hermit in the highest mountain can give this dose of poison. it's well kept by him with all his strength. and donot give it to anyone carelessly.
i was disappointed to my very core, and murmured to myself" even death is such a hard thing for me to achive!"
but i would not throw away the dream of seeing my dream girl in her snoring. so i picked up myself and started off at once.
after a long long journey, i finally found that mountain.
yeah, the mountain is too high, it reached heaven, and unless you lie down your self , you could never have a good view of it.
the climbing is hard, for ice and snow are everywhere, though longdeserted by men, yet it's full of shits, and dung. it stinks, and creeps into my nostrils, and want to suffocate me with all their charming smells.
but iam not daunted, i climbed, and hold a bottle of perfume under my nose. and kept my climbing.
and finally i find the hermit, in a den abandoned by a bear.
but when i greeted him, i was astonished by his greeting. he has no form, only a cloth was covered over his invisable body.
and without any word, he told me he knew what i want, and as he spake, he tear the middle of the empty place between the cloak of his upper body, and lo! a bleeding heart was dug out, and presented before my eyes. and he commanded" drink it! and you will die your longdesired death."
trembling, i took up his bleeding heart and took all my courage and give a little sip of it.
immediately, i felt faint, and fell into a fit. and could not recover from it again.
how long this state lasted i didnot know, but when i woke up from this fit. i found i was in a very old house. there was only the light of moon in the sky, very weak light.
and at the opening lies the beast~
and it had a thousand heads, the heads of clocks. and the only sound i could hear was ticktack ticktack ticktack ticktack ticktack ticktack!
as if there was no end of it.
i was puzzled by this weird beast, and thought"how could such a beast do me any harm?"
thus i thought, i advanced a step, but as i furtered, i felt very sleepy, and what i want to do is to sleep right now right there and never come to wake again.
but the pain in my brain cell become severe and fierce! as if a flaming fire was burning in it.
so two voices resounded in my head in turn
"keep alert!", "go to sleep!"
but the fear of losing my aim was more powerful than the desire to sleep.
so i advanced step by step, but the rhyme of the monotonous ticktack was too spellbinding, and sleepprovoking~!
so i decided i must make a stop of this state of being lulled into sleep.
so i tore down one of the hands of one clock with all my might, and left my blood upon it, thus start the hard job of plucking up all the thousand hands of all the clock.
and at the end of this of this plucking. look a wonder happened.
the clock beast crumbled in to dust, and a coffin was found in the mid of the ruin.
so i carefully opened the lid of it.
while i was opening it, i heard the sound of the snoring of the dreaming girl.
and when i completely removed it from the top of the coffin, behold! there! in the coffin, a beauty was there sleeping, snoring and murmuring, and a faint voice was heard
in my ears,"at last!"
i shook her, she was still sleeping, i hit her head she was still sleeping, i kick her butt, she was still sleeping, i twisted her face, she's still sleeping.
finally, i remembered the story of white snow, and then, i gave her lips a kiss, very long, so as to ensure the awakening of her. but the result was still sleeping.
then, i was in despair, and could not find the right way of waking her up.
so i sat there sadly, weeping desperately.
just at this moment, a voice in heaven thundered again!
"make love to her!"
and i obeyed the commanded as soon as possible,
and at the very moment of connection, miracle happened, she become alive, and smiles to me and exclaimed"yea! you're the one!"
but i didnot want to hurt her, so i stoped the lovemaking.
but as i stoped the action, the action of her smile disappeared, and her breath.
and then, another voice was heard in heaven.
"constantly!"
so, i abided by the order at once,
and make and make and make.
and she become alive again and smiled to me and wept in joy saying"it's finished!"
thus the heave and the breath of our action become the eternal rhythm of the testimony of our love.
and as we thus maked, we come to this conclusion-
"unless we make love constantly, we will lost in loneliness and misery."
as we thus concluded, my head was opened again and lo! the spell that's written with the inscription"a thousand years' loneliness" was flying out and after a few minutes's show, bursted into pieces, and with this burst a yell was heard in a dark cloud, an this was the last word of the wicked witch,
"the chosen one! the chosen one!"
it's just my fancy, to dispel the dark shadow of my loneliness, or else, how can i find another way to drive it away? hahaha~~