Estreen
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I've worked real hard to try to get this Christmas trip to London going (as most of you know from another post of mine), I've had to work on my parents getting to support me on it and researching ticket prices, finding my passport, etc. I decided to go, and I really want to, or...wanted to.
How am I supposed to feel when my bf only says "It's up to you" and talks about using the time to catch up on sleep pretty much; I'll be too excited to sleep. He says he's apathetic to everything right now, but.... >.< Argh, I just feel very under appreciated and at this point, kinda unloved. Just the way in which he said it...like it doesn't matter, only if I want to. He's not excited, doesn't really care one way or the other...and I'm tired of it. I'm not sure if I'll cancel it yet, but thinking about it.
I just found out that he's had a hard time sleeping lately and I felt bad and told him he could look for ways to try to relax and get to sleep but he "doesn't have the time" but he has the time to hang out with Dan everyday, to watch Lost and movies every night, but not enough time to take 15 minutes out and like Google up some remedies or something. He doesn't seem to really want to help himself, and by this point, I just have my own needs that aren't being fulfilled.
I can't remember the last time he actually seemed/sounded happy or excited to talk to me or see me online. This whole past week/week and a half he sounds distant, distracted, and he's not very talkative. To some of you guys I probably sound too clingy, perhaps even annoying, and I would agree, except that this is a long distance relationship, so its not like I get to see him whenever I want. If I did get to see him in person regularly, then I wouldn't care about how he acts on messenger. It's been a long time since we've had a phone conversation too, because he doesn't like talking on the phone whilst at Uni. Although, he didn't seem to care much for talking on the phone at all when he was back home either.
I accept that he can be like this sometimes, and I usually try to be as understanding as possible and be there for him, but it always backfires on me, and damnit I have needs too. This kind of stuff seems to always happen, and I'm just tired of it. He just doesn't even seem to care. No, I'm not breaking up with him, I just don't know what I'm supposed to do now. I don't even feel like talking to him now, and he seems just fine with that.
How am I supposed to feel when my bf only says "It's up to you" and talks about using the time to catch up on sleep pretty much; I'll be too excited to sleep. He says he's apathetic to everything right now, but.... >.< Argh, I just feel very under appreciated and at this point, kinda unloved. Just the way in which he said it...like it doesn't matter, only if I want to. He's not excited, doesn't really care one way or the other...and I'm tired of it. I'm not sure if I'll cancel it yet, but thinking about it.
I just found out that he's had a hard time sleeping lately and I felt bad and told him he could look for ways to try to relax and get to sleep but he "doesn't have the time" but he has the time to hang out with Dan everyday, to watch Lost and movies every night, but not enough time to take 15 minutes out and like Google up some remedies or something. He doesn't seem to really want to help himself, and by this point, I just have my own needs that aren't being fulfilled.
I can't remember the last time he actually seemed/sounded happy or excited to talk to me or see me online. This whole past week/week and a half he sounds distant, distracted, and he's not very talkative. To some of you guys I probably sound too clingy, perhaps even annoying, and I would agree, except that this is a long distance relationship, so its not like I get to see him whenever I want. If I did get to see him in person regularly, then I wouldn't care about how he acts on messenger. It's been a long time since we've had a phone conversation too, because he doesn't like talking on the phone whilst at Uni. Although, he didn't seem to care much for talking on the phone at all when he was back home either.
I accept that he can be like this sometimes, and I usually try to be as understanding as possible and be there for him, but it always backfires on me, and damnit I have needs too. This kind of stuff seems to always happen, and I'm just tired of it. He just doesn't even seem to care. No, I'm not breaking up with him, I just don't know what I'm supposed to do now. I don't even feel like talking to him now, and he seems just fine with that.