Well, I guess here I can start complaning about stuff, and all.
OK, So I am an 18 years old, and I guess I am totally wrong in every aspect of human being. I'm this one freak who have no friends (not even online), I have never been in any relationship, and to be honest, I'm not going to be. And also, I really hate myself, I guess it's really deep, and heavy depression. The point is, I really know how rotten I am, There's no one, who like me... people are usually hate me, or they don't know me, but If they do meet me, they propably would hate me too. I'm totally out from social life, usually I talk to someone onky in school, even If I'm feeling very unwelcome there. I have no friends online too... there's no "chat friend". I'm also out from a love life. I never been in any relationship, and I don't really want to be, mostly becose I don't think anyone could possible find me attractive, and nice. It was my decision to stay low, and gave up on people, becose I'm awere of my miserable being.
Do I have a suicidal thoughs? At least one per hour. Do I seek help? I'm kinda immune to psychologists. Mostly becose I'm listening only to myself, and I don't really care what others talk about it. I becose immune since I turn 8, becose I already was unwelcome in school. So I decided to stop socializing since my early years. I remember I always was this one loser, with nothing.
I hate everything about myself. I hate my body, face, voice, personality, thoughs, live style. I wish to be dead everyday, but I'm too lazy to actually do it. I'm waiting until someone kill me instead.
Do I have anyone who would care about me? - of course not. Do I have any hobbies? - not really. I like drawing, but it's another reason why I should be dead (becose I'm suck). Do I have plans for future? - Just die... that's all.
And, even If I'm immune to it, I really wanna try to at least feel better. Even If Im awere about the truth. I was depressed for 4 years now. But my problems are much more deeper than that. I always was like this (unhappy, lonley, and misunderstood kid)... but i had actuall suicide plans since those 4 years, so I guess I can count from there.
OK, So I am an 18 years old, and I guess I am totally wrong in every aspect of human being. I'm this one freak who have no friends (not even online), I have never been in any relationship, and to be honest, I'm not going to be. And also, I really hate myself, I guess it's really deep, and heavy depression. The point is, I really know how rotten I am, There's no one, who like me... people are usually hate me, or they don't know me, but If they do meet me, they propably would hate me too. I'm totally out from social life, usually I talk to someone onky in school, even If I'm feeling very unwelcome there. I have no friends online too... there's no "chat friend". I'm also out from a love life. I never been in any relationship, and I don't really want to be, mostly becose I don't think anyone could possible find me attractive, and nice. It was my decision to stay low, and gave up on people, becose I'm awere of my miserable being.
Do I have a suicidal thoughs? At least one per hour. Do I seek help? I'm kinda immune to psychologists. Mostly becose I'm listening only to myself, and I don't really care what others talk about it. I becose immune since I turn 8, becose I already was unwelcome in school. So I decided to stop socializing since my early years. I remember I always was this one loser, with nothing.
I hate everything about myself. I hate my body, face, voice, personality, thoughs, live style. I wish to be dead everyday, but I'm too lazy to actually do it. I'm waiting until someone kill me instead.
Do I have anyone who would care about me? - of course not. Do I have any hobbies? - not really. I like drawing, but it's another reason why I should be dead (becose I'm suck). Do I have plans for future? - Just die... that's all.
And, even If I'm immune to it, I really wanna try to at least feel better. Even If Im awere about the truth. I was depressed for 4 years now. But my problems are much more deeper than that. I always was like this (unhappy, lonley, and misunderstood kid)... but i had actuall suicide plans since those 4 years, so I guess I can count from there.