OverTheRainbow
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Recently, I left a 5 year relationship. It ended abruptly one night through a series of events. He got charged with domestic violence for threatening to inflict harm. I have a safety order on him.
It's almost been a month since I've seen him. His trial is in about a month.
Throughout the 5 years, he has verbally and emotionally abused me. I am not so comfortable claiming physical abuse, because I haven't been beat. I was pushed, pulled, and cornered, but not beat. While I understand technically it is considered physical, I don't have the heart to place myself with people who've endured much more.
I do believe severe physical abuse is just a matter of time, however, I miss him terribly. There are really good things about him, and there are really terrible things about him. Everyday I miss those good things. The cuddles, the constant 'I love yous' The holding hands. I feel completely awkward and out of place. I was isolated from my old friends and from making new friends. I have supportive family and seeing a counselor, but I am so lonely.
I recently moved into my own apartment. Everything I buy to setup my new home feels like another step out of the relationship. I want to ball my eyes out everyday.
I cannot express the pain and confusion I feel everyday, throughout the entire day... missing someone who was so mean and stressful to be around. I'm in so much pain, guys, honestly.
Reading articles help. If you guys recommend any good reads on moving on or something... please share.
It's almost been a month since I've seen him. His trial is in about a month.
Throughout the 5 years, he has verbally and emotionally abused me. I am not so comfortable claiming physical abuse, because I haven't been beat. I was pushed, pulled, and cornered, but not beat. While I understand technically it is considered physical, I don't have the heart to place myself with people who've endured much more.
I do believe severe physical abuse is just a matter of time, however, I miss him terribly. There are really good things about him, and there are really terrible things about him. Everyday I miss those good things. The cuddles, the constant 'I love yous' The holding hands. I feel completely awkward and out of place. I was isolated from my old friends and from making new friends. I have supportive family and seeing a counselor, but I am so lonely.
I recently moved into my own apartment. Everything I buy to setup my new home feels like another step out of the relationship. I want to ball my eyes out everyday.
I cannot express the pain and confusion I feel everyday, throughout the entire day... missing someone who was so mean and stressful to be around. I'm in so much pain, guys, honestly.
Reading articles help. If you guys recommend any good reads on moving on or something... please share.