roundasapenguin
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Hello :shy:
If only you knew how long I've been sitting here, starring at the blinking cursor, totally at lost for what to type.
I came across this site through a search in google.com. Heaven knows how I found it (and if you ask me now, I'd probably not remember).
I'm female, a little on the round side (what was that politically correct word they use... a few extra pounds? ...hmmm) and I guess like most people here, I'm feeling a little lonely.
It's not that I don't have friends. I'm not a social butterfly who'd ' oh-hello-daaaaaaaaarling' and charm everyone I meet within the first 5 seconds but I do have a small group of friends. I just haven't gotten around to finding the right guy in my life and being at the age where every one of your friends are starting to marry off or creating babies like hamsters, it just makes you feel like a total outsider from the whole scene.
Feeling lonely and slightly depressed by it isn't something I'm terribly proud of, and not something I announce to people around me. So I was really quite relieved when I found this forum. I went through some entries and was surprised how much I can relate to some of the entries here. It's kinda like a light bulb going off in my head and I tell myself, "OMG, at least I'm not alone in this."
Being a bit on the round side doesn't help the self-esteem either, when people are teasing you either about your weight or the fact that you're on the road to being a PMS-ing spinster coz everyone else is moving on with your life and yours seem to be just on hold.
I laugh it off as light-heartedly as I can but deep inside, I crumble each time they make comments like that. And it's hell to try to put on a brave front and pretend like nothing's wrong when all you want to do at that point is to close the door, bury your head in your hands and not have to face the world for the next century or so.
So why did I join this forum? I love the fact that I can remain annonymous and express my thoughts frankly here without someone giving me that "God, you're so freaky" look in my face. Who knows, maybe meet a few other people who can obviously understand what I'm going through and maybe help someone pull themselves out of the rut along the way I don't know.
So yeah...hello everyone :shy:
If only you knew how long I've been sitting here, starring at the blinking cursor, totally at lost for what to type.
I came across this site through a search in google.com. Heaven knows how I found it (and if you ask me now, I'd probably not remember).
I'm female, a little on the round side (what was that politically correct word they use... a few extra pounds? ...hmmm) and I guess like most people here, I'm feeling a little lonely.
It's not that I don't have friends. I'm not a social butterfly who'd ' oh-hello-daaaaaaaaarling' and charm everyone I meet within the first 5 seconds but I do have a small group of friends. I just haven't gotten around to finding the right guy in my life and being at the age where every one of your friends are starting to marry off or creating babies like hamsters, it just makes you feel like a total outsider from the whole scene.
Feeling lonely and slightly depressed by it isn't something I'm terribly proud of, and not something I announce to people around me. So I was really quite relieved when I found this forum. I went through some entries and was surprised how much I can relate to some of the entries here. It's kinda like a light bulb going off in my head and I tell myself, "OMG, at least I'm not alone in this."
Being a bit on the round side doesn't help the self-esteem either, when people are teasing you either about your weight or the fact that you're on the road to being a PMS-ing spinster coz everyone else is moving on with your life and yours seem to be just on hold.
I laugh it off as light-heartedly as I can but deep inside, I crumble each time they make comments like that. And it's hell to try to put on a brave front and pretend like nothing's wrong when all you want to do at that point is to close the door, bury your head in your hands and not have to face the world for the next century or so.
So why did I join this forum? I love the fact that I can remain annonymous and express my thoughts frankly here without someone giving me that "God, you're so freaky" look in my face. Who knows, maybe meet a few other people who can obviously understand what I'm going through and maybe help someone pull themselves out of the rut along the way I don't know.
So yeah...hello everyone :shy: