Lonely and rejected
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I'm lonely not so much to be with people as I have a need to feel valued. I'm a caregiver type and spent my whole life caring for others before I took care of me . I mean to the point I figuratively set myself on fire to keep others warm. To the point I have lost pretty much anything and anyone I cared about. I am finding that I am being rejected by just about everyone I loved. Mainly family but many friends have walked away from me .For about 10 years or longer really , I have lost people I cared about. Today I have no friends . I used to be friendly and had alot of friends. Life and time have robbed me of my health , my 30 year marriage , my sons and grandchildren . Not to death , merely to being rejected. As a result I find myself becoming more isolated and alone. I'm polite to others but fear getting rejected so I reject them first. It's a horrible way to live. I don't know why I am being abandoned . I hurt inside and feel so unwanted and damaged in some way. I'm not suicidal but I want to understand why I'm so unworthy of love in the last year's of my life.