brickinthewall
Well-known member
Hello , been a while since I've posted here most of you probably don't remember me. A lot has happened since I've last been here, I'll put it short , I finally got into med school after a lot of trying , left my abominable hometown , live in a big city now , lost an extraordinary amount of weight..and other smaller stuff.
When I first left to university about half a year ago I actually thought everything was gonna change , that things will be better. I won't lie , things have changed but in essence they are still the same. I'm still socially awkward even if I don't seem so at first sight,I hardly have any friends (2 of them I can actually call friends and one is about 500km away) and let's just say I can't get things right with the ladies.
What caused my recent breakdown is the fact that I've been trying to interact with girls (mostly from uni) the past few weeks. My problem is that even if I manage to get to know someone they gradually forget me over time , as if I'm transparent. We have great few conversations and then...boom..nothing happens. Maybe it's just me but , should I really be the one that ALWAYS makes the first move? I mean if we went out or talked a couple of times and she had a good time , is it really that much to ask to not be the first one to call or text or.... ANYTHING? After a talk I had with my mother about this she said that I shouldn't expect others to make a move if I don't(people in general not just girls). Needless to say that got me pretty down , I find it kind of absurd and stupid. I refuse to believe life works like this, that people only look you up if you make the first move. If this really is how life works then I would rather just stay single for the rest of my life.
I'll probably rant some more later.
When I first left to university about half a year ago I actually thought everything was gonna change , that things will be better. I won't lie , things have changed but in essence they are still the same. I'm still socially awkward even if I don't seem so at first sight,I hardly have any friends (2 of them I can actually call friends and one is about 500km away) and let's just say I can't get things right with the ladies.
What caused my recent breakdown is the fact that I've been trying to interact with girls (mostly from uni) the past few weeks. My problem is that even if I manage to get to know someone they gradually forget me over time , as if I'm transparent. We have great few conversations and then...boom..nothing happens. Maybe it's just me but , should I really be the one that ALWAYS makes the first move? I mean if we went out or talked a couple of times and she had a good time , is it really that much to ask to not be the first one to call or text or.... ANYTHING? After a talk I had with my mother about this she said that I shouldn't expect others to make a move if I don't(people in general not just girls). Needless to say that got me pretty down , I find it kind of absurd and stupid. I refuse to believe life works like this, that people only look you up if you make the first move. If this really is how life works then I would rather just stay single for the rest of my life.
I'll probably rant some more later.