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That Guy
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I'm a 24-year-old male dealing with an incredible amount of school and credit card debt. I can't pay my bills anymore. The weight of this debt is on me all the time but I'm discovering new ways in which it is harming me socially. It's 4:00 in the morning. I just woke up in a panic, with a depressing thought.
When I last fell for a girl she ended up having a boyfriend. I got to see him once. He seemed to dress much nicer than I and he had a nicer car. I don't know anything about him, but just from his appearance he seemed to be better-off. The girl I was all about was also certainly more financially secure than I. When I saw them together it felt like someone came up behind me and cut off my balls. There was no way I could have filled that guys shoes in that situation. He was able to provide for her in ways I never could have. All I can give someone is debt and misery it seems.
I don't mean to be materialistic. I know "things" aren't all that girls want. But it makes me feel like such an ******* knowing that I can't take a girl out to somewhere nice without putting myself deeper into the hole. I can't even afford to buy myself new shoes to wear to a date. I should be able to take a girl out to restaurants and not have to worry about it. I should be able to give her little gifts from time to time. I should be able to offer her some type of security. As a male I should be able to provide for my girl. It feels horrible knowing that most any girl will most likely be making more than me and carrying far less debt.
I am going to have to live in this tight financial spot for some time now. Even with a decent job I will not be able to be secure for years to come. I feel caged, like I won't be able to share my life with someone comfortably until all this settles. But God only knows when that will be.
People who say money can't buy you happiness didn't understand much. When you can't afford decent clothes or even a haircut, love and happiness are much harder to come by.
When I last fell for a girl she ended up having a boyfriend. I got to see him once. He seemed to dress much nicer than I and he had a nicer car. I don't know anything about him, but just from his appearance he seemed to be better-off. The girl I was all about was also certainly more financially secure than I. When I saw them together it felt like someone came up behind me and cut off my balls. There was no way I could have filled that guys shoes in that situation. He was able to provide for her in ways I never could have. All I can give someone is debt and misery it seems.
I don't mean to be materialistic. I know "things" aren't all that girls want. But it makes me feel like such an ******* knowing that I can't take a girl out to somewhere nice without putting myself deeper into the hole. I can't even afford to buy myself new shoes to wear to a date. I should be able to take a girl out to restaurants and not have to worry about it. I should be able to give her little gifts from time to time. I should be able to offer her some type of security. As a male I should be able to provide for my girl. It feels horrible knowing that most any girl will most likely be making more than me and carrying far less debt.
I am going to have to live in this tight financial spot for some time now. Even with a decent job I will not be able to be secure for years to come. I feel caged, like I won't be able to share my life with someone comfortably until all this settles. But God only knows when that will be.
People who say money can't buy you happiness didn't understand much. When you can't afford decent clothes or even a haircut, love and happiness are much harder to come by.