Musicman
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I've been feeling even more acutely upset and lonely and suicidal than usual for the last few days. My life feels utterly irredeemable. I've been depressed and lonely for so many years now.
I go to the counseling services at my college, but we're on spring break this week. I tried talking to my (former??) Best friend, who now hardly talks to or sees me now that she is in a relationship. She told me she has no time for me then ignored the rest of my messages. My other friends didn't respond.
Nobody talks to me or spends time with me. I've really tried to branch out and do stuff with other people this year. I've been rejected and ignored on all fronts.
I'm so utterly depressed, and the people who I thought love me seem to be completely apathetic. I've been fantasizing over and considering killing myself, probably by jumping, but can't seem to get myself to do it yet.
Edited: Fixed the weird font issues.
I go to the counseling services at my college, but we're on spring break this week. I tried talking to my (former??) Best friend, who now hardly talks to or sees me now that she is in a relationship. She told me she has no time for me then ignored the rest of my messages. My other friends didn't respond.
Nobody talks to me or spends time with me. I've really tried to branch out and do stuff with other people this year. I've been rejected and ignored on all fronts.
I'm so utterly depressed, and the people who I thought love me seem to be completely apathetic. I've been fantasizing over and considering killing myself, probably by jumping, but can't seem to get myself to do it yet.
Edited: Fixed the weird font issues.