Hellokittysparklez
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hello all.. I'm looking for some advice. I am thinking about seeing a psych for my obsessive stress and my anxiety. I don't feel normal I never have. I can't ever relax like others around me. It's worse when I'm alone...I'm constantly cleaning or I'm online. I can't like sIt down read a book watch tv. My job follows me home and stress from work keeps me from just chilling...that's all I wanna do. I just wanna be high really really high. But I quit smoking with my bf cause he's on probation and u had a panic attack that just ruined it for me. Now I just resort to freaking out about stuff. It's bad I have emotional breakdowns weekly where I feel embarrassed and I just want to die. I can't sleep at night unless I'm drunk or on something. I worry about everyone but myself. Can somebody give me a legal drug to calm me down that doesn't cause paranoia ...that is another problem. I just want to be normal. Just wanna chill out and let go, ya feel me? But I can't and trust me that breathing technique junk isn't for me. It just adds another thought and worry to my brains insomnia. I need a depressant for my overactive mind...but I'm so depressed about myself as it is I want to be happy. I would like to be able to sit down and be satisfied with a clear mind and relax without the use of illegal and damaging drugs. I want to be normal I hate my life and I push everyone away because of my problems