...Okay so I go back to college tomorrow and I'm practically shaking from anxiety. I'm going to be living with a new roommate and 8 people I don't know but he does in a dorm that is arranged more like an apartment, two in each room that opens into a common kitchen and living room. I'm worried about several things:
1. I don't know the guy who I'm rooming with very well, it was out of sheer necessity that we decided to room together he seems like a nice guy but I don't know if he will always have people over in the room or if he will hate me for being in the room a lot, not give me any privacy and always ask me what I'm doing or what we will talk about or think I'm a general loser because I don't hang out with anyone...
2. I'll be living on the first story of a building which I'm assuming will be loud and offer little privacy
3. Living with the 8 strangers... I don't know if they will touch my stuff, be a-holes or drink and party all the time or what
4. I have 8 am classes and a very hard and busy work load this semester if I don't get sleep I will fail epically...
5. Not sure what I'll do without the person I played ping pong with, he goes to a different college now
Now heres the kicker, for the past 2 years of me going to college I have tried to make friends and failed miserably. I have joined just about every club on campus including a church organization,still haven't fit in anywhere, so what I was going to do, I was going to try to fit in with the people I live with and get into that little cliche. Problem is I have no idea how to do that, people always say be yourself, but I'm weird and I know that if I was myself they wouldn't accept me at all.. I don't know if I can take another isolated and lonely fall and winter by myself without anyone to talk to in real life..
Any ideas what I should do? Any advice?
1. I don't know the guy who I'm rooming with very well, it was out of sheer necessity that we decided to room together he seems like a nice guy but I don't know if he will always have people over in the room or if he will hate me for being in the room a lot, not give me any privacy and always ask me what I'm doing or what we will talk about or think I'm a general loser because I don't hang out with anyone...
2. I'll be living on the first story of a building which I'm assuming will be loud and offer little privacy
3. Living with the 8 strangers... I don't know if they will touch my stuff, be a-holes or drink and party all the time or what
4. I have 8 am classes and a very hard and busy work load this semester if I don't get sleep I will fail epically...
5. Not sure what I'll do without the person I played ping pong with, he goes to a different college now
Now heres the kicker, for the past 2 years of me going to college I have tried to make friends and failed miserably. I have joined just about every club on campus including a church organization,still haven't fit in anywhere, so what I was going to do, I was going to try to fit in with the people I live with and get into that little cliche. Problem is I have no idea how to do that, people always say be yourself, but I'm weird and I know that if I was myself they wouldn't accept me at all.. I don't know if I can take another isolated and lonely fall and winter by myself without anyone to talk to in real life..
Any ideas what I should do? Any advice?