Unix
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Yesterday, for the first time in my life, my laptop charger melted, and who knows, perhaps my laptop too.
Now, I had a very deep connection with my laptop, it was the most similar thing to a friend that I have ever had. I spent countless hours watching movies, animes, tutorials and everything. It made me feel not alone, and it entertained me.
I always knew that it was pathetic and embarrassing and I never talked about it with anyone but there were times where I had to watch a movie or play a game cause the reality was so sad and hostile that a movie was much more pleasant.
However now everything changed. I'm following a class for expanding my work skills, and I often stay 20+ hours awake. And from Monday to Friday it works wery well, I'm completely absorbed by work and new things. I almost never touch a pc or a social media on these days.
The real problems comes during weekends. I don't really know what to do besides studying and reading. Is hard to believe but I think they the loss of my laptop is a benediction, it made me realize how socially pathetic I am. Cause during weekends I was used to binge watching things and listen a lot of music.
Now that Iive alone I invited a girl that works with me to come visit my house, and of course she refused. But the funny thing comes now. She thinks that I might rape or beat her, cause Im a big man and she is a little girl. Is obvious that this is merely an excuse, but is still funny to hear.
So, this is the dilemma, what can I do to pass my weekends? Going out alone doesn't count since I already spend 99% of my free time alone and I often go alone visiting castles, museums etc
I thought about doing some volunteer work but I don't know where to start. I also though about rugby, but is so embarrassing to let others see and make fun of my dick. This is truly a curse, I don't know how to overcome it, even paid escorts scares the honeysuckle out of me.
Any suggestions? Some of you have ever done volunteering?
There is a paintball camp here nearby, but the minimum required for a match is 8 people, I don't even know if I can get to 3
Now, I had a very deep connection with my laptop, it was the most similar thing to a friend that I have ever had. I spent countless hours watching movies, animes, tutorials and everything. It made me feel not alone, and it entertained me.
I always knew that it was pathetic and embarrassing and I never talked about it with anyone but there were times where I had to watch a movie or play a game cause the reality was so sad and hostile that a movie was much more pleasant.
However now everything changed. I'm following a class for expanding my work skills, and I often stay 20+ hours awake. And from Monday to Friday it works wery well, I'm completely absorbed by work and new things. I almost never touch a pc or a social media on these days.
The real problems comes during weekends. I don't really know what to do besides studying and reading. Is hard to believe but I think they the loss of my laptop is a benediction, it made me realize how socially pathetic I am. Cause during weekends I was used to binge watching things and listen a lot of music.
Now that Iive alone I invited a girl that works with me to come visit my house, and of course she refused. But the funny thing comes now. She thinks that I might rape or beat her, cause Im a big man and she is a little girl. Is obvious that this is merely an excuse, but is still funny to hear.
So, this is the dilemma, what can I do to pass my weekends? Going out alone doesn't count since I already spend 99% of my free time alone and I often go alone visiting castles, museums etc
I thought about doing some volunteer work but I don't know where to start. I also though about rugby, but is so embarrassing to let others see and make fun of my dick. This is truly a curse, I don't know how to overcome it, even paid escorts scares the honeysuckle out of me.
Any suggestions? Some of you have ever done volunteering?
There is a paintball camp here nearby, but the minimum required for a match is 8 people, I don't even know if I can get to 3