randomdude
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I am 20 years old male gym muscular, tall and fit and untill recently i wasn't able to change my way of thinking that i am ugliest and most digusting human that ever lived, i barelly let go of my suicidal thoughts month ago and now i can really feel i am better. Thing is people tend to lift me up to skies basically in their way of thinking. For example most recently i worked at one restaurant all girls swarm me saying i am best looking co-worker they ever seen.. Males think i am guy that gets laid every night and that i could kick anyones ass they make me alpha among them basically. THIS is how they see me? In reality i am insecure-anxious depressed virgin, i haven't had girlfiend in 3 years if i count out small 1-7 days relationships. One co-worker came to me asking me to meet him with my female friends and i have 0 girl friends. In 2014 i made a move on 6 girls biggest achievement was 7 days relationship with one and other 5 dump me like trash. But i don't give a fuk the thing that worries me is THAT people think i am something i am not and act on it. But on the other side if they saw me like a nerd that i feel i am would i feel better? I am confused i just don't like that presure people give me for just my appearance and looks.. Would trade looks for confidence any day XD