Posted by csmswhs - Today 07:49 AM
there was a moment in my life where i had no choice but to ask for professional help. it deeeply went against my grain. but at the time, i had no grain left. there wasn't even grain.
the temporary emergency assistance helped. the rest did not, and there were horrible side effects. i pressed on, and after 2 weeks, i refused any further professional help and medication.
it was very very difficult.
i kept pressing on. finding my own way.
i'm not saying its for everyone, but i am now much better (not "perfect") but doing much better. it took years. i did it on my own. although, would never refuse emergency help.
to me, and this is just me, some of it is chemical, much of it is not. and its always been more than one 'thing'.
in some situations, regarding chemical, broccoli helped. it gave me a 'superpower' brain so to speak, but could still sense the undertow, yet couldn't feel it as much. the 'undertow' i was feeling had a real reason to be there aside from chemical. but it was also mixed with chemical.
i actually laid off the broccoli, because i didn't care for the absense of emotion. (while sensing it was still residing within me)
(sounds like i may be joking, but i'm not). (and broccoli might not have the same effect upon you).
and broccoli doesn't always work. sometimes it is the weather. (not always) but sometimes.
Tesla was a pioneer of biochemistry. (wrong word, but close, i can't remember at the moment). but anyways, he had similar problems. and he found through himself, some of the sources.
i have this similar problem as well.
today was a very happy day for me. many things to be happy about amidst the other problems. but the undertow remained through it all, and it was STRONG. its been quite strong recently (along with other side effects), due to universal changes.
i have "real" reasons to be upset etc. as well. i also have reasons related to biochemistry.
right now, many people are very nervous, fragile, worried, more sad than usual, angry, etc..
there are specific days of the year i sense to truly watch out for! and believe me watch out! time to stay inside and hide!
anyways, sorry for rambling, but i'm thankful that you are concientious about things. it is very difficult, but i made it through many many various things without medication. i would never say the route i took is for everyone. this is just my experience.
good luck, i guess i wasn't much help, i wish i could help somehow.