The following is an unapologetic rant, sorry if I offend by whining:
I could say ''I've got no life'' but I've got one and it looks like this: it's a robot life where I work 3-4 times a week and I have an internship 3 times a week. I have an evening class and a day class as well. When I have free time, I'm usually too tired and have not enough money to go anywhere. I have two days off a month, on which days I usually am so tired I sleep around the clock. I never go outside other than to go to work or come back from work. I go for 9-12 days working evenings, then nights, then evenings again and then days. Any evenings I have off are for studying and writing essays (didn't think there was anything called ''killed by essays'' but, there is). No going out.
I've never been that tired or in such bad health as I am in now. I drink a lot of energy drinks to stay awake during the day or during the night, depending on my schedule. The drinks can't be stopped for even a day because then, I crash hard (like I did during Christmas time when I took a break from it). I'm completely addicted and I'll have to go on some type of detox when school is over.
Once a month or so, I'll see a friend outside of school for a meal and a drink. Otherwise, I'm in my own appartment studying or sleeping before I go again somewhere among the six places I'm required to go to for either work, internship or school.
It's been months like this and I have 2 months to go before school finishes. I'm just writing this because I'm fed up. People expect me to soon find work but I have no desire to go on interviews right now and act the part. Everybody from my promotion that I know is on a job search right now. I don't want to, at least not until this hell is over with. I don't feel anything other than indifference with everything. When I walk, I walk like a robot who thinks about where I'm going. Weekends and the sun shining don't mean anything because I don't currently have weekends off and I don't have time to enjoy the sun (like now, it's sunny and I'm going to work in 30 min.) Some people who have money go on a trip after their studies or volunteer in Africa or Bolivia. I think I'm just gonna be sleeping for 3 weeks after before I even lift the finger.
I'm done. Thank you for reading me because nobody around me realizes I can't do anything more than what I'm doing and ask me to do things for them, get this and do that. I say ''no''.
I could say ''I've got no life'' but I've got one and it looks like this: it's a robot life where I work 3-4 times a week and I have an internship 3 times a week. I have an evening class and a day class as well. When I have free time, I'm usually too tired and have not enough money to go anywhere. I have two days off a month, on which days I usually am so tired I sleep around the clock. I never go outside other than to go to work or come back from work. I go for 9-12 days working evenings, then nights, then evenings again and then days. Any evenings I have off are for studying and writing essays (didn't think there was anything called ''killed by essays'' but, there is). No going out.
I've never been that tired or in such bad health as I am in now. I drink a lot of energy drinks to stay awake during the day or during the night, depending on my schedule. The drinks can't be stopped for even a day because then, I crash hard (like I did during Christmas time when I took a break from it). I'm completely addicted and I'll have to go on some type of detox when school is over.
Once a month or so, I'll see a friend outside of school for a meal and a drink. Otherwise, I'm in my own appartment studying or sleeping before I go again somewhere among the six places I'm required to go to for either work, internship or school.
It's been months like this and I have 2 months to go before school finishes. I'm just writing this because I'm fed up. People expect me to soon find work but I have no desire to go on interviews right now and act the part. Everybody from my promotion that I know is on a job search right now. I don't want to, at least not until this hell is over with. I don't feel anything other than indifference with everything. When I walk, I walk like a robot who thinks about where I'm going. Weekends and the sun shining don't mean anything because I don't currently have weekends off and I don't have time to enjoy the sun (like now, it's sunny and I'm going to work in 30 min.) Some people who have money go on a trip after their studies or volunteer in Africa or Bolivia. I think I'm just gonna be sleeping for 3 weeks after before I even lift the finger.
I'm done. Thank you for reading me because nobody around me realizes I can't do anything more than what I'm doing and ask me to do things for them, get this and do that. I say ''no''.
