Recent content by somber_radiance

I can relate in some way. There's nothing really that perks me up anymore. Everything just feels so anticlimactic. The days I laugh and feel alive keep dwindling. But I'm still highly functional...it's just like my world has turned from high def color to boring greys. Sometimes I think it's a...

My boyfriend and I have been seeing each other for about half a year. Facts alone, things are great. He treats me well. He's emotionally available and expresses his feelings for me. There's little to no drama. He introduces me to family and friends. We've moved into the comfortable phase fairly...

After a lot of introspection and meditation, I recently came to the realization that a big part of my feelings of loneliness/emptiness stem from a deep, deep hatred of myself. All this hatred has been built up from years of disappointments (like constantly falling short of my expectations and...

I'm not ready to share this burden with anyone close to me yet. I thought maybe anonymous strangers could give some objective advice. I can see my life beginning to spiral into hell. My father has been mentally unwell and may be out of his job soon. Because of all the stress my mother might...

I just realized lately that maybe I'm experiencing depression. For the longest time I've fluctuated between not being able to stop crying and feeling nothing at all (numb and emotionless when I should be reacting emotionally to something). I can barely eat or sleep. And, I completely hate myself...

Again, glad I'm not alone. I feel like I just wasted over 10 years of my life trying to be someone I'm not so that someone close to me could live vicariously through me, but I am failing miserably. I would have liked to go to my dream college, find my dream job, find and marry an amazing guy and...

I'm grateful for everyone's input. And, it's also nice to know I'm not alone. Your words are encouraging and have helped me take small steps out of this darkness. This spoke to me because it's something I've forgotten about doing. I've been sitting in my comfort zone for way too long...being...

I was asked the other day what I wanted out of life. And I had no answer. That's when I realized, I want nothing. I think I've lost myself and become useless to this world. I just feel like I am in a very dark dark place right now. All alone, incredibly selfish, so tired of carrying my burdens...

^No offense but I didn't understand Anyway...OP, I can relate. I am one of the few among my girl friends that's still single (since forever too). I hate how they complain about how their boyfriend did this or that. My response? Just dump him then if you're so unhappy! When I'm in a good mood I...

That's very true.

She eats them though.

Time to find a vampire. Apparently the devil likes virgins too. Have you seen that Megan Fox movie, Jennifer's Body?

It's not just you. I think his hate was his way of expressing how unhappy he was. Maybe he felt he was stuck in an unsatisfying marriage or a not so successful life and took out all the anger on those closest to him, instead of finding a solution (which is much harder to do). I guess it shows...

That's the lecture I get from my happily-in-long-term-relationship friends. They call it "test driving." Well I had two huge influences growing up: religion and...well for some reason I always felt that my parents were very traditional when it came to relationships and that they would freak...

I wish I could meet someone like you. Maybe I unintentionally give off too much sexual innuendos because the majority of guys I meet just want to have fun and jump in the haystack with me...and apparently think that's what I want...unfortunately that's not what I'm looking for. Note to self...