New guy here. Just need to find somewhere to post this so I can get it off my chest.
I somehow feel like life is realy pointless anymore. All I can blame it on is myself. I also feel like I dunno why I am still here anymore.
Im 24 male living in England. I have good health (no problems) and have no career path. I still live with my parents due to me not having no job. All I do is sit on my arse on this god dam laptop, go out to see the same bunch of friends (who have no path aswell) to drink or smoke weed.
I blame myself bcos I started smoking weed/skiving/drinking since I was 16 and i've kinda messed up my life.
I have no direction to turn too. Im sick of this boring life. I want a new life or a challenge but I dont know where to turn.
I want a new/better career than doing boring shitty demoralizing job like pot washer. Ive been looking into teaching English aboard but im finding it hard to get the energy to do anything and I keep on pushing it back.
I feel like im kinda rambling now and probs boring ppl. Ppl on here have 10x more worse problems than me and I feel blessed to my bones at what I have in my life, but mayb im taking it 4 granted.
I just dont know what to do with my life anymore. I feel like a looser. I havnt had a girlfriend in a year due to me not caring/cant find anyone.
I have no qualifications, no pride.
I realy should just quit the weed and my brian would function alot better. But I get so bored/depressed with life that I kinda force the smoke down me to try and forget bout how my life is falling apart just for the next few hours.
Im sorry for this confusing rant but I didnt know where to go. I dont wanna say these kinda things to my parents/friends as they wuddnt understand it tottaly. I feel like im bottling this up so I hope this site can help me focus.
I somehow feel like life is realy pointless anymore. All I can blame it on is myself. I also feel like I dunno why I am still here anymore.
Im 24 male living in England. I have good health (no problems) and have no career path. I still live with my parents due to me not having no job. All I do is sit on my arse on this god dam laptop, go out to see the same bunch of friends (who have no path aswell) to drink or smoke weed.
I blame myself bcos I started smoking weed/skiving/drinking since I was 16 and i've kinda messed up my life.
I have no direction to turn too. Im sick of this boring life. I want a new life or a challenge but I dont know where to turn.
I want a new/better career than doing boring shitty demoralizing job like pot washer. Ive been looking into teaching English aboard but im finding it hard to get the energy to do anything and I keep on pushing it back.
I feel like im kinda rambling now and probs boring ppl. Ppl on here have 10x more worse problems than me and I feel blessed to my bones at what I have in my life, but mayb im taking it 4 granted.
I just dont know what to do with my life anymore. I feel like a looser. I havnt had a girlfriend in a year due to me not caring/cant find anyone.
I have no qualifications, no pride.
I realy should just quit the weed and my brian would function alot better. But I get so bored/depressed with life that I kinda force the smoke down me to try and forget bout how my life is falling apart just for the next few hours.
Im sorry for this confusing rant but I didnt know where to go. I dont wanna say these kinda things to my parents/friends as they wuddnt understand it tottaly. I feel like im bottling this up so I hope this site can help me focus.