LonelySutton
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So I am now 44... ikes... and I have about 40 years left of life realistically. Since I was about 18 I have been dieting. I suspect I just naturally tend to want more food than my body burns. About every three years I would lose some and gain it back. I am a complete expert on dieting. A few years ago I did a diet plan that involved very low calories and medical monitoring and I did lose weight. But, I couldn't keep it off. I tried for two years. And one more slowly gaining.
Finally I just had a thought... is it time to just accept the weight my body wants to be? Though it isn't preferred...
Just thinking about that...putting it in my head... wow... I immediately felt this overwelmning joy. It isn't the "food" that I miss, it is the life that I put off to keep dieting / low calories. The idea of going out to eat with friends (if I get any) and having what I want; cooking for myself and making what I want, even buying in bulk so that I could have stuff on hand... most of this stuff has been "put off" over the years to keep from eating.
But also, it was the idea of finally accepting myself... completely, just made me so happy. I don't know... I have mostly felt unable to achive things the last few years... I feel like my day is one long heavy series of things to do... but when I took THIS thing off it... it was like instantly I felt so much energy / power. It was almost like I reset myself back to the time I was a teenager. Because this is how I felt when I was younger... like of course I could achieve anything.
So it isn't just so much about accepting myself but I was thinking how I had this thing I was failing at and instead of accepting that and moving on with my life... I literally fought it for years and kept it in my life ... wasting my time and energy.
If your still trying to change something that will never change... as Elsa says, let it go. Your life is waiting.
Finally I just had a thought... is it time to just accept the weight my body wants to be? Though it isn't preferred...
Just thinking about that...putting it in my head... wow... I immediately felt this overwelmning joy. It isn't the "food" that I miss, it is the life that I put off to keep dieting / low calories. The idea of going out to eat with friends (if I get any) and having what I want; cooking for myself and making what I want, even buying in bulk so that I could have stuff on hand... most of this stuff has been "put off" over the years to keep from eating.
But also, it was the idea of finally accepting myself... completely, just made me so happy. I don't know... I have mostly felt unable to achive things the last few years... I feel like my day is one long heavy series of things to do... but when I took THIS thing off it... it was like instantly I felt so much energy / power. It was almost like I reset myself back to the time I was a teenager. Because this is how I felt when I was younger... like of course I could achieve anything.
So it isn't just so much about accepting myself but I was thinking how I had this thing I was failing at and instead of accepting that and moving on with my life... I literally fought it for years and kept it in my life ... wasting my time and energy.
If your still trying to change something that will never change... as Elsa says, let it go. Your life is waiting.