Ian Haines
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Is anybody on? I don't want to be alone. I'm always alone. This night is deathly silent and it's like the silence is pressing on me and crushing me from every angle. I just wish I could "magic" up a nice, new friend...a friend who could just rest their hand on my forearm and just.......be there with me, and for me.
Friends, these days, don't know how to be friends, and family don't know how to behave like family. The world has disowned me and I, for some reason, am still alive...but, for what? Why should I hang around, like this?...torturing myself with aliveness? What is the point in all of this? Is there some secret of life that makes it worth keeping?
One helpline finishes at 10.30 pm. Another ended around, I think, 5pm. When they all close, who is there to turn to? Why remain around when the telephone numbers run out because time ran out? Who would be there for me to turn to, now? When all the sources run out, why am I still here, allowing myself to be tortured by loneliness, like this?
Friends, these days, don't know how to be friends, and family don't know how to behave like family. The world has disowned me and I, for some reason, am still alive...but, for what? Why should I hang around, like this?...torturing myself with aliveness? What is the point in all of this? Is there some secret of life that makes it worth keeping?
One helpline finishes at 10.30 pm. Another ended around, I think, 5pm. When they all close, who is there to turn to? Why remain around when the telephone numbers run out because time ran out? Who would be there for me to turn to, now? When all the sources run out, why am I still here, allowing myself to be tortured by loneliness, like this?