anonymoustaco
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So my nineteenth birthday is in exactly one month.
Back in May, when my sister had her birthday party, we had about seventeen people crammed into our living room eating pizza and candy, give or take a few.
At my birthday last year, I invited someone who I thought was my best friend at the time, some girl who I invited just because I wanted to feel like I had friends, and a friend who came from Canada. Well, only the one girl and the friend from Canada came, not the girl who I thought was my best friend. She decided to stay home with her boyfriend instead, doing nothing.
Well, we went to an amusement park, and the one girl who I invited just because caused a TON of unnecessary drama (the attention hog -_-)
And this year, I can't invite any of them to do anything, and I haven't made any new friends since. Actually, I've lost the few I had left. So this birthday is going to suck big time. Should I even try to enjoy it? I haven't had an actual halfway enjoyable birthday since I was nine, when a set of twins came over and stole one of my Pokemon games. And its not like my family cares. They say I can do whatever I want, but they don't know how it feels. Every year, all my birthday is, is a reminder that I've spent another year alone, and survived another year of emotional trauma (but I won't get into that here). I hate it. And my sister likes to rub it in my face. Everytime I'm right and she's wrong, she says "At least I have friends. At least I have a life."
So yeah, I know its not the biggest problem ever, and probably not even worth the time to read for some people. But really, should I even try to do anything? Even if I did, I'd be alone. Should I even try to enjoy it? Does anybody ever even do anything for their birthdays anymore?
Edit: You know what, I think this might be in the wrong place.. I'm sorry if it is, I'm still kinda new here.
Back in May, when my sister had her birthday party, we had about seventeen people crammed into our living room eating pizza and candy, give or take a few.
At my birthday last year, I invited someone who I thought was my best friend at the time, some girl who I invited just because I wanted to feel like I had friends, and a friend who came from Canada. Well, only the one girl and the friend from Canada came, not the girl who I thought was my best friend. She decided to stay home with her boyfriend instead, doing nothing.
Well, we went to an amusement park, and the one girl who I invited just because caused a TON of unnecessary drama (the attention hog -_-)
And this year, I can't invite any of them to do anything, and I haven't made any new friends since. Actually, I've lost the few I had left. So this birthday is going to suck big time. Should I even try to enjoy it? I haven't had an actual halfway enjoyable birthday since I was nine, when a set of twins came over and stole one of my Pokemon games. And its not like my family cares. They say I can do whatever I want, but they don't know how it feels. Every year, all my birthday is, is a reminder that I've spent another year alone, and survived another year of emotional trauma (but I won't get into that here). I hate it. And my sister likes to rub it in my face. Everytime I'm right and she's wrong, she says "At least I have friends. At least I have a life."
So yeah, I know its not the biggest problem ever, and probably not even worth the time to read for some people. But really, should I even try to do anything? Even if I did, I'd be alone. Should I even try to enjoy it? Does anybody ever even do anything for their birthdays anymore?
Edit: You know what, I think this might be in the wrong place.. I'm sorry if it is, I'm still kinda new here.