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UT_Laura
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Hello fellow loners!
It’s nice to have somewhere to turn for venting and suggestions, so I appreciate this forum and its’ goals.
My name is Laura. I’m almost 41. My bday is next week and it’s, simply put, the hardest time of year for me.
I’m typically an extrovert with occasional bursts of introversion. I’m loud and funny and have been a social butterfly since I was little. But as I get older I think the extroversion I used to feel alot more was actually armor. I was taught that if you’re funny and goofy then you’ll get positive attention, so I think I donned that armor hoping it would result in getting positive attention. But that armor didn’t give me the attention I really wanted, and now I’m struggling to even know myself. I’m excruciatingly introverted now, and have been for over a year.
Today, during a week of national holiday, the beginning of the busy shopping season, and the week before my stupid bday, I’m feeling so so alone and lonely. My husband does his best, but he’s quite lonely as well, so life is kind of “blah” for both of us right now.
I’m hoping to connect with some lovely spirits out there in the world, and be reminded that truly I’m not alone. Thanks for reading! Laura in Utah, USA
It’s nice to have somewhere to turn for venting and suggestions, so I appreciate this forum and its’ goals.
My name is Laura. I’m almost 41. My bday is next week and it’s, simply put, the hardest time of year for me.
I’m typically an extrovert with occasional bursts of introversion. I’m loud and funny and have been a social butterfly since I was little. But as I get older I think the extroversion I used to feel alot more was actually armor. I was taught that if you’re funny and goofy then you’ll get positive attention, so I think I donned that armor hoping it would result in getting positive attention. But that armor didn’t give me the attention I really wanted, and now I’m struggling to even know myself. I’m excruciatingly introverted now, and have been for over a year.
Today, during a week of national holiday, the beginning of the busy shopping season, and the week before my stupid bday, I’m feeling so so alone and lonely. My husband does his best, but he’s quite lonely as well, so life is kind of “blah” for both of us right now.
I’m hoping to connect with some lovely spirits out there in the world, and be reminded that truly I’m not alone. Thanks for reading! Laura in Utah, USA