Solace
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Ok so. I've been having issues lately. I've made a post on here about how I feel like I'm waiting for someone, expecting someone. Missing someone so intensely. But I don't know who it is.
Disclaimer: I already know i'm insane. I'm coping and dealing with it. So just bear with me. I just feel like I need to talk about it cause I can't in real life.
I'm always having weird experiences. feeling people tap me on the shoulder, hearing music in my head, hearing the door open or the phone ring when it didn't, seeing strange figures watching me, not to mention all the every day stuff like hearing voices and fighting paranoia and delusions and stuff.
Once in a while though I get these memories that aren't mine.
Well every night I get lonely and feel like I'm missing someone but I don't know who. Sometimes I even cry.
Well last night I found myself suddenly feeling like I was somewhere else. Completely whisked away. I was in the room, yes. I didn't really go anywhere. But it's like when you're heading to work or something and you suddenly remember your vivid dream from the night before? For an instant you're not anywhere, you're back in your dream remembering everything, back in that weird castle you dreamed about where you were a knight only your armor was made out of cheese or something. Then you blink and are back in your car going "what the hell?".
That's what these memories are like. I remembered suddenly, the anguish of being separated from your people, of being scattered in strange lands and not being known. Suddenly I was sobbing over this. And then I came to my senses and was like "what the hell!?"
But hey. look it's 1:30 and i'm just having a weird episode.
I feel like if I don't figure out some answers to all this crap i'm gonna end up believing something weird. And I hate that the only places anyone talks about this kind of stuff is on weird psychic sites. Aren't there any normal people that have weird stuff happen to them? I don't believe in all that weird stuff. I honestly don't! No problem to people who do. I just think it's weird.
Anyway.... please no one tell me i'm an indigo child or some other stuff like that. I'm liable to believe it and I don't want to.
Just. I don't even know. Just thanks for letting me ramble.
Disclaimer: I already know i'm insane. I'm coping and dealing with it. So just bear with me. I just feel like I need to talk about it cause I can't in real life.
I'm always having weird experiences. feeling people tap me on the shoulder, hearing music in my head, hearing the door open or the phone ring when it didn't, seeing strange figures watching me, not to mention all the every day stuff like hearing voices and fighting paranoia and delusions and stuff.
Once in a while though I get these memories that aren't mine.
Well every night I get lonely and feel like I'm missing someone but I don't know who. Sometimes I even cry.
Well last night I found myself suddenly feeling like I was somewhere else. Completely whisked away. I was in the room, yes. I didn't really go anywhere. But it's like when you're heading to work or something and you suddenly remember your vivid dream from the night before? For an instant you're not anywhere, you're back in your dream remembering everything, back in that weird castle you dreamed about where you were a knight only your armor was made out of cheese or something. Then you blink and are back in your car going "what the hell?".
That's what these memories are like. I remembered suddenly, the anguish of being separated from your people, of being scattered in strange lands and not being known. Suddenly I was sobbing over this. And then I came to my senses and was like "what the hell!?"
But hey. look it's 1:30 and i'm just having a weird episode.
I feel like if I don't figure out some answers to all this crap i'm gonna end up believing something weird. And I hate that the only places anyone talks about this kind of stuff is on weird psychic sites. Aren't there any normal people that have weird stuff happen to them? I don't believe in all that weird stuff. I honestly don't! No problem to people who do. I just think it's weird.
Anyway.... please no one tell me i'm an indigo child or some other stuff like that. I'm liable to believe it and I don't want to.
Just. I don't even know. Just thanks for letting me ramble.