This has sneaked up on me, but with 4 days off work I have suddenly realised just how lonely I am. There are a few problems. I had a relationship go very badly wrong about 9 years ago, and since then, have not even had a date. Truthfully that's not something I miss as I am sorta asexual and the relationship was only good in the first 6 months then limped along for a further 2 and a half years, I almost wish I was gay as that would make things easier to explain to people, but I just have no interest in being with anyone of either sex. But of course my friends don't feel the same way, and their lives have changed as mine has stood still.
My best friend moved a couple of hours travel away about 4 years ago, and I travelled to stay with her and her partner about once every 2 months- we'd go out, have drinks, stay up late watching dumb films... Well now she's pregnant. She gets tired and says there's no point in my travelling through as by the time I get there she will be in bed. So I haven't visited in over 6 months and saw her once briefly in that time. She's been in touch by text, but not very often. As I have almost less interest in children than I do in relationships I feel we will continue to drift.
My other close friends- well one is now married and if I don't make time to go to see her I don't really hear from her. My other I am really confused about. We live nearby, have a shared hobby and spent a lot of time together, but recently when I go to our club people are asking questions about whether I am going to X too- turns out they are going places with her and I have never even been asked. That hurts.
I've had a brief chat with someone since work ended Thursday but spent no real time with anyone. Have drunk far too much and slept a lot. If it weren't for my dogs I'd be completely isolated. I have spent time writing, which is my hobby and wishing I had some idea where i want to go with my life, as my job is something I never wanted to do and is dead end but is secure and well paid- seems ungrateful to wish I had something to look forward to when so many people are unemployed, but I do.
Anyway, I wish I knew what to do now. Anyone else feeling the same this easter time?
My best friend moved a couple of hours travel away about 4 years ago, and I travelled to stay with her and her partner about once every 2 months- we'd go out, have drinks, stay up late watching dumb films... Well now she's pregnant. She gets tired and says there's no point in my travelling through as by the time I get there she will be in bed. So I haven't visited in over 6 months and saw her once briefly in that time. She's been in touch by text, but not very often. As I have almost less interest in children than I do in relationships I feel we will continue to drift.
My other close friends- well one is now married and if I don't make time to go to see her I don't really hear from her. My other I am really confused about. We live nearby, have a shared hobby and spent a lot of time together, but recently when I go to our club people are asking questions about whether I am going to X too- turns out they are going places with her and I have never even been asked. That hurts.
I've had a brief chat with someone since work ended Thursday but spent no real time with anyone. Have drunk far too much and slept a lot. If it weren't for my dogs I'd be completely isolated. I have spent time writing, which is my hobby and wishing I had some idea where i want to go with my life, as my job is something I never wanted to do and is dead end but is secure and well paid- seems ungrateful to wish I had something to look forward to when so many people are unemployed, but I do.
Anyway, I wish I knew what to do now. Anyone else feeling the same this easter time?
