I can't stand that anymore.. Every time that happens I feel more and more dead.. Because it turns out I'm fuckin' alone even with that ******* that's called my boyfriend..
The reason I'm writing this is that we were at some meeting, a lecture or something, it's regular meeting in which a group of people go and discuss things.. So.. I brought up a question that interested me deeply but it seemed the lecturer wasn't pleased with it in some god knows what reason, and the other people from the group began to explain me along with him what it's all about but the topic became too far from my question (to be honest I think the lecturer did that on purpose just to run from my original question), so I couldn't understand their point, and I continued to explain my point and what did I actually mean.. And all of the fuckin' sudden, my "boyfriend" began to act agressively towards me and began to "whisper" in my ear at a high voice, but everyone heard him, what the fresia I did not understand, you see, they explained to me five times! (it sounded that he thought I'm a retard, some stupidhead, his ehaviour was so agressive because it seems my dullness annoyed him and somehow I held up to ridicule him with his retarded girlfriend in front of all the hyperintelligent ******* there..), so everyone in that fuckin' room understood what the attitude to me was.. It was so terribly humiliating! Shouldn't the one you're in relationship with to be your support, your countenance and to stand up for you even if you're not always right (but what the hell was my sin there?!!), or if not, at least not humiliate you in front of other people! How can trust that guy?! That's not his first time of verbal humiliation towards me and everytime I told him how I feel about that, that I feel humiliated and hurt, he says that I see it like this and I imagine that and I'm insane.. I can't stand that anymore!!!!! I can't !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;(((((((((((((((((((((
The reason I'm writing this is that we were at some meeting, a lecture or something, it's regular meeting in which a group of people go and discuss things.. So.. I brought up a question that interested me deeply but it seemed the lecturer wasn't pleased with it in some god knows what reason, and the other people from the group began to explain me along with him what it's all about but the topic became too far from my question (to be honest I think the lecturer did that on purpose just to run from my original question), so I couldn't understand their point, and I continued to explain my point and what did I actually mean.. And all of the fuckin' sudden, my "boyfriend" began to act agressively towards me and began to "whisper" in my ear at a high voice, but everyone heard him, what the fresia I did not understand, you see, they explained to me five times! (it sounded that he thought I'm a retard, some stupidhead, his ehaviour was so agressive because it seems my dullness annoyed him and somehow I held up to ridicule him with his retarded girlfriend in front of all the hyperintelligent ******* there..), so everyone in that fuckin' room understood what the attitude to me was.. It was so terribly humiliating! Shouldn't the one you're in relationship with to be your support, your countenance and to stand up for you even if you're not always right (but what the hell was my sin there?!!), or if not, at least not humiliate you in front of other people! How can trust that guy?! That's not his first time of verbal humiliation towards me and everytime I told him how I feel about that, that I feel humiliated and hurt, he says that I see it like this and I imagine that and I'm insane.. I can't stand that anymore!!!!! I can't !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;(((((((((((((((((((((
Sorry for what happened to you. Have you talked to him or considered breaking up? Don't let a dude break down your self esteem.
