Dear-_-Tragedy
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Why does this happen? Why does it go and come back? I'm not severely sad like I have been in the past, but I just feel pretty hacked off. I have a few theories as to why.
I attempted online dating once more because a friend convinced me to as he was having a bit of success. By success I mean she agreed to meet him but they haven't set a date. Anyway, it didn't take long before I remembered why I stopped online dating. Because I never get any worthwhile results. Yeah, a girl will talk to me here and there but it never gets anywhere.
Like the other day for example; I was chatting to this girl and she seemed very interesting and I was drawn to her. So there I was talking to her and out of the blue she blocks me! I don't understand, I was being pleasant, being myself and all. It really struck me in a bad way . That experience then started a chain reaction of negativity and pessimism. I noticed my little brother getting all this attention for making a couple of sculptures. They were mediocre at best (and I'm not being bias if that's possible). My mom posted a picture of them sitting on the centre table of the living room.
Two things: my mom has never liked anything I've done enough to warrant treating it as a shrine and posting it on facebook. The other thing, 5 people from our family liked it and commented with such praise and support. Once again something that never happens/happened to me. On top of that he's my step brother! So yeah, my mom is more supportive to her step son.. (technically my mom didn't marry his father so he isn't even my step brother).
On top of that, my radiator in my room is making loud clanging sounds so I'm hardly getting sleep. Nearly all my housemates are all boring as hell and stay in their rooms, only coming out to either eat, go to uni or go out on the night without invitation. As far as I know they're pleasant people but no one ever hangs out with me except for this one girl who is actually pretty cool and hangs out sometimes (not my type of girl which is good cause she is cool).
Also I'm very worried that I won't pass my uni course :/
I'm scared because depression contributes to my Psychosis. I feel on the brink of depression.
I attempted online dating once more because a friend convinced me to as he was having a bit of success. By success I mean she agreed to meet him but they haven't set a date. Anyway, it didn't take long before I remembered why I stopped online dating. Because I never get any worthwhile results. Yeah, a girl will talk to me here and there but it never gets anywhere.
Like the other day for example; I was chatting to this girl and she seemed very interesting and I was drawn to her. So there I was talking to her and out of the blue she blocks me! I don't understand, I was being pleasant, being myself and all. It really struck me in a bad way . That experience then started a chain reaction of negativity and pessimism. I noticed my little brother getting all this attention for making a couple of sculptures. They were mediocre at best (and I'm not being bias if that's possible). My mom posted a picture of them sitting on the centre table of the living room.
Two things: my mom has never liked anything I've done enough to warrant treating it as a shrine and posting it on facebook. The other thing, 5 people from our family liked it and commented with such praise and support. Once again something that never happens/happened to me. On top of that he's my step brother! So yeah, my mom is more supportive to her step son.. (technically my mom didn't marry his father so he isn't even my step brother).
On top of that, my radiator in my room is making loud clanging sounds so I'm hardly getting sleep. Nearly all my housemates are all boring as hell and stay in their rooms, only coming out to either eat, go to uni or go out on the night without invitation. As far as I know they're pleasant people but no one ever hangs out with me except for this one girl who is actually pretty cool and hangs out sometimes (not my type of girl which is good cause she is cool).
Also I'm very worried that I won't pass my uni course :/
I'm scared because depression contributes to my Psychosis. I feel on the brink of depression.