Locke
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Hello, I'm new here.
My name is Locke. I'm 30 years old, I work from my home and I live in New Mexico, USA. My hobbies include reading and playing video games.
I suffer from a currently untreated anxiety disorder. I don't have any friends because I'm afraid of people. I'm afraid to leave my house because when I'm around people, I go through massive, embarrassing anxiety attacks.
I've tried making friends on other forums, and it hasn't worked. I have a really hard time talking to people, I don't know how to relate to anyone. I try my best to be friendly, but no one wants to talk to me. I guess people just don't like me. I've been trying to make friends with people on various forums, blogs and websites for over a year now. I haven't made a single one. Honestly, I'm not expecting it to work here either, especially after this overly- depressing and long introduction post.
I don't say all of this to get sympathy or advice or anything. Someday I'll get health insurance and maybe this will all change, maybe I'll be able to get counceling or meds or something and my life will be better. I'm just trying to hold on until then, but I'm afraid. I don't want to be alone anymore, the soul-crushing loneliness and boredom is killing me. So I have to try.
Anyway, I don't know what else to say. I know I've said too much already, but hiding how screwed up I am hasn't worked on other forums, so I'm being completely honest here.
My name is Locke. I'm 30 years old, I work from my home and I live in New Mexico, USA. My hobbies include reading and playing video games.
I suffer from a currently untreated anxiety disorder. I don't have any friends because I'm afraid of people. I'm afraid to leave my house because when I'm around people, I go through massive, embarrassing anxiety attacks.
I've tried making friends on other forums, and it hasn't worked. I have a really hard time talking to people, I don't know how to relate to anyone. I try my best to be friendly, but no one wants to talk to me. I guess people just don't like me. I've been trying to make friends with people on various forums, blogs and websites for over a year now. I haven't made a single one. Honestly, I'm not expecting it to work here either, especially after this overly- depressing and long introduction post.
I don't say all of this to get sympathy or advice or anything. Someday I'll get health insurance and maybe this will all change, maybe I'll be able to get counceling or meds or something and my life will be better. I'm just trying to hold on until then, but I'm afraid. I don't want to be alone anymore, the soul-crushing loneliness and boredom is killing me. So I have to try.
Anyway, I don't know what else to say. I know I've said too much already, but hiding how screwed up I am hasn't worked on other forums, so I'm being completely honest here.