How do I change this life, or get one really. I'm barely motivated to get a job (apply for about 1-2 a week) and when I do I either never hear back or get an interview then don't get the job. Doesn't seem like 1 single woman is interested in me. Have 1 friend. I've been to 3 therapists in the past 3yrs to which there was no outcome or change. Just said I was depressed. I attend college 3 days a week, but on the 4 days I'm not there, it's just depressing as hell. I'm starting to not like going college now because I'm 38 I just feel really old and outta place. Luckily I can get away with it 'cause I only look late 20's. I get on with people there pretty much but don't see anyone outside college as I feel so much older than'em. Hanging around with 17-20yo's at my age would seem weird. I do tend (and I put this down to habit and depression) spend a lot of time at college (when not in lessons obviously) sitting in the canteen or in this computer library area on my own, wondering why I've ended up here in my life and it's like no-one likes me. I don't really want to go out pubbing or clubbing as I don't drink or take drugs anymore. Anyway, I seriously need some help but don't have any answers or know where or who to turn to. What do I do? I live in England and need to know if there are any places I can go to get training or to fill my spare time up that are free for those on esa.