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alexandra93
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Hello again everyone! I hope y'all doing alright.
I am wondering if anyone around here feels trapped somehow in the past, do the memory of ex-relationships haunt you at all at night?
They haunt me. All my bad memories. They all attack me when I try to fall asleep at night. All the painful words everyone ever said to me, they are being replayed in my mind, on and on. It's exhausting. Sometimes I feel I can't take it anymore. When I go to work in the morning, I carefully place one step in front of the other concentrating on my walk, trying to distract myself from all the things that hurt me in the past. I feel as if my cup is filled. I feel as if I gave up all that was best in me and now there is nothing good left in me.. I feel hollow and I walk without direction. It's driving me insane. It's the reason I had to take a break from this forum, I couldn't even do anything lately other than existing(eating, breathing,walking, etc.) I need a lifeline, I need something to make me feel alive again and free from all my fears and all my past. I despise my past, I despise everything that happened to me... I need peace. I need to find my peace again. Tell me how you managed to find some kind of peace... Give me an advice, anything I could hold on to. I feel desperate and lost and I can't do this anymore, I can't keep pretending that I am fine... I am not fine at all, I feel like I'm dying inside. Am so sorry for complaining but I cannot keep silent anymore.. I need help, any kind of help from anyone.. Please...
I am wondering if anyone around here feels trapped somehow in the past, do the memory of ex-relationships haunt you at all at night?
They haunt me. All my bad memories. They all attack me when I try to fall asleep at night. All the painful words everyone ever said to me, they are being replayed in my mind, on and on. It's exhausting. Sometimes I feel I can't take it anymore. When I go to work in the morning, I carefully place one step in front of the other concentrating on my walk, trying to distract myself from all the things that hurt me in the past. I feel as if my cup is filled. I feel as if I gave up all that was best in me and now there is nothing good left in me.. I feel hollow and I walk without direction. It's driving me insane. It's the reason I had to take a break from this forum, I couldn't even do anything lately other than existing(eating, breathing,walking, etc.) I need a lifeline, I need something to make me feel alive again and free from all my fears and all my past. I despise my past, I despise everything that happened to me... I need peace. I need to find my peace again. Tell me how you managed to find some kind of peace... Give me an advice, anything I could hold on to. I feel desperate and lost and I can't do this anymore, I can't keep pretending that I am fine... I am not fine at all, I feel like I'm dying inside. Am so sorry for complaining but I cannot keep silent anymore.. I need help, any kind of help from anyone.. Please...