6 years ago I was a normal guy who wanted to have a normal life with a good career, family and a life partner. I never wanted anything more than that. But my life completely changed when I was diagnosed with chronic kidney decease. I had a transplant after that. In these 6 years I have never proposed to a girl nor ever tried to be in any relationship. I almost cut that part of my feeling of being in love with someone. I always think that it would be unfair to the girl if I do so. I think that I don't have the right to be in someone's life because in [/size]my opinion when someone commits to be with someone then he/she should have the ability to fulfill the same also. Since my life is not at all guaranteed I decided not to.
I even cannot engage myself in any heavy work. I already quit 3 jobs because of this. Whenever I work hard my medical reports shows abnormal results. Now I am just staying at home depended my parents which I hate the most. I feel like burden to them. Sometimes they even call me burden (indirectly).
Seeing my friends engaged or married and leading a perfect life makes me feel myself a big loser. I feel so lonely now. I cannot tell anyone what I feel from inside. I do not want to show how horrible my life is.
I even cannot engage myself in any heavy work. I already quit 3 jobs because of this. Whenever I work hard my medical reports shows abnormal results. Now I am just staying at home depended my parents which I hate the most. I feel like burden to them. Sometimes they even call me burden (indirectly).
Seeing my friends engaged or married and leading a perfect life makes me feel myself a big loser. I feel so lonely now. I cannot tell anyone what I feel from inside. I do not want to show how horrible my life is.