Iwant2Bhappy
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I am new and have read a few post. I do not know quite how to start this thing so I will just jump in.
I am married and in my thirties. I have no children (not from a lack of trying.) I have felt lonely most of my life. I did not grow up with a supportive family and I married into one that I catch talking bad about me from time to time. I have no friends here. I have one friend in Florida who's life is the American dream and another who is on the edge of depression in California. (Neither state am I in.) I am not suicidal but sometimes I wonder when this long journey will end and why it had to start in the first place. I fruitlessly wonder about the "me" I might have been if I had a mother that loved me. I can't help but assume that me would have been better. Maybe I would have been more charismatic and easier to love.
I am married and in my thirties. I have no children (not from a lack of trying.) I have felt lonely most of my life. I did not grow up with a supportive family and I married into one that I catch talking bad about me from time to time. I have no friends here. I have one friend in Florida who's life is the American dream and another who is on the edge of depression in California. (Neither state am I in.) I am not suicidal but sometimes I wonder when this long journey will end and why it had to start in the first place. I fruitlessly wonder about the "me" I might have been if I had a mother that loved me. I can't help but assume that me would have been better. Maybe I would have been more charismatic and easier to love.