I can't bear this situation anymore.

[stork_error]

Your parents are abusive.
In this life, which is very short, you cant be happy or heal from abuse as long as you have the abusive people in your life. You need to move out. There is no other answer.

 

[benj]

Agree with everything posted.

Your parents are abusive that's why you're internalising it and feeling guilty all the time.

You should definitely move out you'll feel loads better without constantly getting it in the neck.

If you can't now then if you promise yourself you're going to maybe you can abstract yourself from the situation till you can and it'll stop you getting damaged?

Look after yourself and don't lose your self worth through being in a honeysuckle situation, you've obviously been strong enough to deal with it so far, respect to you.