randomhero1984
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This is a long story but basically...
My ex wife was turned against me for money from her family for no reason other than I stood up for her against her parents one time when it got out of hand.
This is super complex, but getting to the real problem.
It's been almost 10 years, she's remarried and I still miss her achingly every day. Every morning, Every night, I hate it. I don't understand how this is right, we had an amazing life together and ever since this one day she's gone from the most amazing person I ever laid my eyes on to hating me demonically (not literally, but very much just constantly throwing me under the bus and treating me with absolutely no respect in terms of our kid)
If she's truly happier, I'm actually happy, I love her so much that I would rather her be happy then miserable to save a family but I know she can't be, her quality of life is reduced by at least 75% with this guy, he calls her names to me behind her back and is a total uneducated, unemployable piece of family wrecking dir, I digress though.
I've always been non-volatile and have paid all support, been supportive, helped when I can do extra etc.
I should hate her, I shouldn't be still feeling the same way about her as when I asked her to marry me.
I hate that there's still posts on her facebook from out entire relationship including pictures of her baby bump through to all the loving comments posted daily right up to the moment she vanished, abandoned me and returned just hating me and with another man whom she married a year later.
What the hell happened? I was with her 10 years before we split, I know her and know this isn't what she wanted. I know they fight all the time and I know she probably is so aggressive to me because perhaps she blames me for her family making her choose between me and them. I thought I was sticking up for her after years of them kind of abusing her financially when they were already well off.
Regardless.......
I love my ex-wife the same today as 11 years ago, I miss her always, when she does ever smile it makes me feel happy even if its love..
Because we have a kid we talk all the time, I always wish her happy birthday, merry christmas,make sure our son does a card for mothers day etc but she doesn't do the same. She doesn't even have my son calling me dad anymore in her house, he has to say my name and call her partner dad. My son would never do that around me and it obviously hurts him but I can't change it.
I just want to understand why 10 years of the person who was abandoned (me) being supportive and always kind and there for her is constantly honeysuckle on by her for no reason, on top of it all why the hell can't I stop missing her. I literally could cry as much now as then if I let it happen but I suffer in silence.
Its important to note while I do miss her this much I know that was a different time now, I accept it was an amazing experience and I'll always cherish it, I accept it can't ever be repaired
What I dont UNDERSTAND is the hate for me..... the lack of any caring about me at all after 1o years of spending all our time together happy, no fighting, so much love and sickening cheesyness. We had a beautiful home, she didn't want to work and was a stay at home mom and I was ok with that. Now shes the one working supporting dummy and my support obviously goes to his unemployment fund cause my kids never got as many clothes or toys as he has here.
How can I stop hurting about her?
She would not discuss this, I'll never know why or what happened, so that's not possible.
I just want to move on so bad... but it still hurts so much I feel it physically at times. I admit, she is the love of my life and I'll never be that happy again, that's just a fact.
Anyways, thanks for listening.
My ex wife was turned against me for money from her family for no reason other than I stood up for her against her parents one time when it got out of hand.
This is super complex, but getting to the real problem.
It's been almost 10 years, she's remarried and I still miss her achingly every day. Every morning, Every night, I hate it. I don't understand how this is right, we had an amazing life together and ever since this one day she's gone from the most amazing person I ever laid my eyes on to hating me demonically (not literally, but very much just constantly throwing me under the bus and treating me with absolutely no respect in terms of our kid)
If she's truly happier, I'm actually happy, I love her so much that I would rather her be happy then miserable to save a family but I know she can't be, her quality of life is reduced by at least 75% with this guy, he calls her names to me behind her back and is a total uneducated, unemployable piece of family wrecking dir, I digress though.
I've always been non-volatile and have paid all support, been supportive, helped when I can do extra etc.
I should hate her, I shouldn't be still feeling the same way about her as when I asked her to marry me.
I hate that there's still posts on her facebook from out entire relationship including pictures of her baby bump through to all the loving comments posted daily right up to the moment she vanished, abandoned me and returned just hating me and with another man whom she married a year later.
What the hell happened? I was with her 10 years before we split, I know her and know this isn't what she wanted. I know they fight all the time and I know she probably is so aggressive to me because perhaps she blames me for her family making her choose between me and them. I thought I was sticking up for her after years of them kind of abusing her financially when they were already well off.
Regardless.......
I love my ex-wife the same today as 11 years ago, I miss her always, when she does ever smile it makes me feel happy even if its love..
Because we have a kid we talk all the time, I always wish her happy birthday, merry christmas,make sure our son does a card for mothers day etc but she doesn't do the same. She doesn't even have my son calling me dad anymore in her house, he has to say my name and call her partner dad. My son would never do that around me and it obviously hurts him but I can't change it.
I just want to understand why 10 years of the person who was abandoned (me) being supportive and always kind and there for her is constantly honeysuckle on by her for no reason, on top of it all why the hell can't I stop missing her. I literally could cry as much now as then if I let it happen but I suffer in silence.
Its important to note while I do miss her this much I know that was a different time now, I accept it was an amazing experience and I'll always cherish it, I accept it can't ever be repaired
What I dont UNDERSTAND is the hate for me..... the lack of any caring about me at all after 1o years of spending all our time together happy, no fighting, so much love and sickening cheesyness. We had a beautiful home, she didn't want to work and was a stay at home mom and I was ok with that. Now shes the one working supporting dummy and my support obviously goes to his unemployment fund cause my kids never got as many clothes or toys as he has here.
How can I stop hurting about her?
She would not discuss this, I'll never know why or what happened, so that's not possible.
I just want to move on so bad... but it still hurts so much I feel it physically at times. I admit, she is the love of my life and I'll never be that happy again, that's just a fact.
Anyways, thanks for listening.