fuzzybutt
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Hey guys. It's been a while since I posted on these forums but tonight I had a little war going on in my head.
In some of my previous threads I wrote about getting rid of my social anxiety. Still haven't gotten rid of it. I also wrote about a girl I had met at work that I became really interested in. That actually turned out fine.
But it's friday night, I tried to drink my fears away and really there isn't anyone to talk to.
This girl, I love her personality and they way that she puts up with my insecurities. Always telling me that its great that we get along since we have our problems.
I'm interested in taking things further than just being friends. Though I don't have the confidence mainly because of these factors:
-I'm 22 and I've never had a single female friend to hang out with since I was 5 years old.
-Social anxiety (though she seems to have it too it's just triggered by different causes but she is WAY more outgoing than me)
-She came out of an abusive relationship probably almost a year ago now. I don't know if she's ready honestly.
The first one isn't a problem. The 2nd one is difficult to work with. I still haven't talked about my issues to my friends. Right now I have about 3 close friends, 2 I see regularly. So I rarely go out.
As for the 3rd factor, I don't want to ruin anything. I don't want to scare her. I don't want to ruin our friendship.
Lately she's been smoking a lot of weed. She was the reason I first tried it. She usually picks me up when we hang out. I'd take her out but I fear she may decline because I won't let her smoke in my parent's car. So really, I've never asked her out.
And I don't want to be alone this weekend either. At the same time though my biggest fear is that there may be someone else she may be interested. No matter how many times she will tell me she "has no friends" that fear will always pop up.
I also have to write a paper for school...Now imagine writing a paper for school that you dread on doing? Sucks right? Now imagine trying to write it while dreading it and having a crush on your mind....it's awful.
It's only been 2 weeks since I last saw her..so maybe I'm overreacting.
In some of my previous threads I wrote about getting rid of my social anxiety. Still haven't gotten rid of it. I also wrote about a girl I had met at work that I became really interested in. That actually turned out fine.
But it's friday night, I tried to drink my fears away and really there isn't anyone to talk to.
This girl, I love her personality and they way that she puts up with my insecurities. Always telling me that its great that we get along since we have our problems.
I'm interested in taking things further than just being friends. Though I don't have the confidence mainly because of these factors:
-I'm 22 and I've never had a single female friend to hang out with since I was 5 years old.
-Social anxiety (though she seems to have it too it's just triggered by different causes but she is WAY more outgoing than me)
-She came out of an abusive relationship probably almost a year ago now. I don't know if she's ready honestly.
The first one isn't a problem. The 2nd one is difficult to work with. I still haven't talked about my issues to my friends. Right now I have about 3 close friends, 2 I see regularly. So I rarely go out.
As for the 3rd factor, I don't want to ruin anything. I don't want to scare her. I don't want to ruin our friendship.
Lately she's been smoking a lot of weed. She was the reason I first tried it. She usually picks me up when we hang out. I'd take her out but I fear she may decline because I won't let her smoke in my parent's car. So really, I've never asked her out.
And I don't want to be alone this weekend either. At the same time though my biggest fear is that there may be someone else she may be interested. No matter how many times she will tell me she "has no friends" that fear will always pop up.
I also have to write a paper for school...Now imagine writing a paper for school that you dread on doing? Sucks right? Now imagine trying to write it while dreading it and having a crush on your mind....it's awful.
It's only been 2 weeks since I last saw her..so maybe I'm overreacting.