LoneKiller
Well-known member
Hi Everyone.
I never wanted to accept it. I thought that it would run it's course and heal by now. All the drugs and alcohol I took have made me stupid. Since I gave all that honeysuckle up, it seems that my brain is continuing to get worse.
I understand that brain cells don't reproduce. But I really thought that abstaining would halt the process of dying brain cells and my intelligence would begin to return to normal. My chess is nowhere near as sharp as it used to be, I have great difficulty grasping the simplest of concepts, and my recall memory sucks.
I'm sick and tired of feeling like an idiot. Just take a look at all of my threads in the Tech Support. I've been online for around 6 years. I should know all the answers to those ridiculous questions by now. I didn't even know that my latest thread included an article from what's known as a Satire site for Christ's sake.
I'm sick and tired of feeling like a Goddamn idiot due to my past addiction. I quit using. I went through Hell to quit. I don't deserve this. I paid my dues!:club::club::club::club::club::club::club::club::club:
I understand that this isn't your guy's problem. I just wanted to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading.
I never wanted to accept it. I thought that it would run it's course and heal by now. All the drugs and alcohol I took have made me stupid. Since I gave all that honeysuckle up, it seems that my brain is continuing to get worse.
I understand that brain cells don't reproduce. But I really thought that abstaining would halt the process of dying brain cells and my intelligence would begin to return to normal. My chess is nowhere near as sharp as it used to be, I have great difficulty grasping the simplest of concepts, and my recall memory sucks.
I'm sick and tired of feeling like an idiot. Just take a look at all of my threads in the Tech Support. I've been online for around 6 years. I should know all the answers to those ridiculous questions by now. I didn't even know that my latest thread included an article from what's known as a Satire site for Christ's sake.
I'm sick and tired of feeling like a Goddamn idiot due to my past addiction. I quit using. I went through Hell to quit. I don't deserve this. I paid my dues!:club::club::club::club::club::club::club::club::club:
I understand that this isn't your guy's problem. I just wanted to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading.