For most of my life I have been a square peg in a round hole.
When I was young, I was considered odd, and eccentric, different. This annoyed me. I wanted to be normal, to fit in. Also I wanted to get on, I was ambitious.
The upshot of this is that I have spent most of my adult life pretending to be something I’m not, desperately trying to conform, so that I would ‘fit in’.
Not only did it never work, but I lost touch with who I really am. And I ended up very unhappy and with a drink problem.
An obvious aspect of this, but not the only one, is that I spent much of my life denying, to myself as much as anyone else, that I am gay. No one was really fooled. When I finally admitted it to my family, they were not in the least surprised.
Well, I have decided that from now on, I will be myself.
And if people don’t like it, tough.
So there!
When I was young, I was considered odd, and eccentric, different. This annoyed me. I wanted to be normal, to fit in. Also I wanted to get on, I was ambitious.
The upshot of this is that I have spent most of my adult life pretending to be something I’m not, desperately trying to conform, so that I would ‘fit in’.
Not only did it never work, but I lost touch with who I really am. And I ended up very unhappy and with a drink problem.
An obvious aspect of this, but not the only one, is that I spent much of my life denying, to myself as much as anyone else, that I am gay. No one was really fooled. When I finally admitted it to my family, they were not in the least surprised.
Well, I have decided that from now on, I will be myself.
And if people don’t like it, tough.
So there!