abbeyroad92
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I want to start off by saying that I am not bipolar in any way. However, I feel like my feelings of loneliness are. Sometimes I feel alone during the day, but a simple conversation with someone can make those feelings go away. And even when I do feel a little lonely during the day, it's pretty minimal. At night, just before I fall asleep, it's a different story. I often find myself unable to fall asleep just thinking about how lonely I am and how much I hate that I've been single my whole life. I find myself imagining that I'm in a relationship with an amazing girl, only to snap back to reality and realize how honeysuckle I actually feel. I think it's crazy that at night I think things to myself like that I might have to resort to suicide at some point in the future, only to wake up without these feelings. This cycle repeats all the time. The one thing I have learned through my experience is that keeping your mind occupied is the best cure for loneliness. Even if school work is the only thing keeping me occupied, at least I feel like I have a purpose in life and goals that I want to achieve. If I let my mind have too much free time, the loneliness takes over. IMO boredom feeds loneliness.