Matt L
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Feeling pissed. All weekend everyone else was out in full force, enjoying the nice fall weather. Couples holding hands and kissing in public everywhere I go.
The only two people I consider friends very rarely invite me to do anything. I'm crazy for a girl whom I rarely see and likely doesn't give a honeysuckle about me. I'm constantly thinking about her and have toxic thoughts of her being with other guys.
Every day is the same. I go to work. Go home. Lay in bed til I pass out. Repeat. There's nothing to do where I live. I feel like I'm just waiting out til I die or finally build the courage to off myself.
I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm alone, I'm bitter, I feel like punching a wall or throwing something. I feel like I'm obsessing over my situation and it's hurting, but I can't shut off my human desire for intimacy like a mindless robot. All the distractions in the world don't take away the loneliness that's constantly hanging over me. No matter where I go or what I do, I'm reminded that I'm single. A 22 KHV. I've had it with everything. I wished I could kill this tiny spec of hope deep inside that gets me up every day.
The only two people I consider friends very rarely invite me to do anything. I'm crazy for a girl whom I rarely see and likely doesn't give a honeysuckle about me. I'm constantly thinking about her and have toxic thoughts of her being with other guys.
Every day is the same. I go to work. Go home. Lay in bed til I pass out. Repeat. There's nothing to do where I live. I feel like I'm just waiting out til I die or finally build the courage to off myself.
I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm alone, I'm bitter, I feel like punching a wall or throwing something. I feel like I'm obsessing over my situation and it's hurting, but I can't shut off my human desire for intimacy like a mindless robot. All the distractions in the world don't take away the loneliness that's constantly hanging over me. No matter where I go or what I do, I'm reminded that I'm single. A 22 KHV. I've had it with everything. I wished I could kill this tiny spec of hope deep inside that gets me up every day.