Hawx79
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All my life ive been mostly alone but never as much as i do now at 32, and i feel like i failed utterly in life...
My current situation: Still havent found decent job (had to drop college because of depression), never had girlfriend, live alone, alone even during holidays, altough im a very down to earth friendly person nobody noone likes me or wants to hang out with me.
As i get older my depression grows stronger but i manage to keep it under by working out everyday going to boxing gym and running.
I wish i had nice woman, good job etc... But unfortunately upon my loss of a better fate all whats laid before me is now pure hate...
Sometimes i wish i never was born, but i still trying to fight back by going on vacation alone, live healthy and doing everyday tasks ever.
But still in the end im all alone and im afraid i die no one will remember me, and that really makes me wanna cry. Please...
My current situation: Still havent found decent job (had to drop college because of depression), never had girlfriend, live alone, alone even during holidays, altough im a very down to earth friendly person nobody noone likes me or wants to hang out with me.
As i get older my depression grows stronger but i manage to keep it under by working out everyday going to boxing gym and running.
I wish i had nice woman, good job etc... But unfortunately upon my loss of a better fate all whats laid before me is now pure hate...
Sometimes i wish i never was born, but i still trying to fight back by going on vacation alone, live healthy and doing everyday tasks ever.
But still in the end im all alone and im afraid i die no one will remember me, and that really makes me wanna cry. Please...