I've become very depressed lately, and I've realized that loneliness is causing it.
I have sleep problems from loneliness. I lay in bed awake for hours, and for a long time I wondered what the problem was. Finally, I have realized, as pathetic as it is, that I really just want a special someone in bed with me. I want someone in my life and friends who really care who I can really relate to.
I get so angry, and it is terrible that I would probably calm down significantly if I had a girlfriend (provided she was decent).
But it seems like, just like the past decade of my life, I'm going to have to just put hope in a better future, but there is no reason to believe the future will get better- not anymore. I might always be this lonely, and I don't know how many more years I can take it. It is making me feel suicidal.
While other people are enjoying their lives, I am not enjoying mine. I find it impossible to enjoy alone.
I have sleep problems from loneliness. I lay in bed awake for hours, and for a long time I wondered what the problem was. Finally, I have realized, as pathetic as it is, that I really just want a special someone in bed with me. I want someone in my life and friends who really care who I can really relate to.
I get so angry, and it is terrible that I would probably calm down significantly if I had a girlfriend (provided she was decent).
But it seems like, just like the past decade of my life, I'm going to have to just put hope in a better future, but there is no reason to believe the future will get better- not anymore. I might always be this lonely, and I don't know how many more years I can take it. It is making me feel suicidal.
While other people are enjoying their lives, I am not enjoying mine. I find it impossible to enjoy alone.