bleachblack
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This is my first post here and I have never imagined myself to ever write on a forum like this.
I am a 22, turning 23 this week, girl. I come from a wealthy family, I have a wonderful dog, and I am in a happy relationship of three years. I have loving parents. I live in a beautiful apartment and have traveled around the world. I am tall, thin, and many people constantly tell me I am gorgeous and look like a model. I get good grades at my university. I am in good health. On the outside it looks like I am living the perfect life. People constantly tell me how jealous they are of me and how glamorous I am. I guess that's because they don't know that for the past three days I haven't left the house for more than an hour. Other than to walk the dog and get food.
The one thing that brings me down is the lack of friends I have. My best friend right now is a girl I have hung out with once, which sounds pathetic. My boyfriend travels a lot for work and when he is gone I feel incredibly lonely and cry a lot and usually stay up all night. Right now he is gone for a week. My birthday is this weekend and I feel incredibly lonely. I have cried several times already because for once, I want to feel special on my birthday and be surrounded my friends. I have bought myself so many wonderful presents but nothing can make me feel better. I would trade it in a heartbeat to be able to go to a big birthday dinner with some friends. I don't know what's wrong with me. On the outside it looks like my life is perfect, but I am so alone.
I wish I knew how to reach out to people and make more friends. I think it is because I am constantly scared that people will hate me. I don't even know why I'm writing this. Maybe it is because I just need to get it off my chest.
I am a 22, turning 23 this week, girl. I come from a wealthy family, I have a wonderful dog, and I am in a happy relationship of three years. I have loving parents. I live in a beautiful apartment and have traveled around the world. I am tall, thin, and many people constantly tell me I am gorgeous and look like a model. I get good grades at my university. I am in good health. On the outside it looks like I am living the perfect life. People constantly tell me how jealous they are of me and how glamorous I am. I guess that's because they don't know that for the past three days I haven't left the house for more than an hour. Other than to walk the dog and get food.
The one thing that brings me down is the lack of friends I have. My best friend right now is a girl I have hung out with once, which sounds pathetic. My boyfriend travels a lot for work and when he is gone I feel incredibly lonely and cry a lot and usually stay up all night. Right now he is gone for a week. My birthday is this weekend and I feel incredibly lonely. I have cried several times already because for once, I want to feel special on my birthday and be surrounded my friends. I have bought myself so many wonderful presents but nothing can make me feel better. I would trade it in a heartbeat to be able to go to a big birthday dinner with some friends. I don't know what's wrong with me. On the outside it looks like my life is perfect, but I am so alone.
I wish I knew how to reach out to people and make more friends. I think it is because I am constantly scared that people will hate me. I don't even know why I'm writing this. Maybe it is because I just need to get it off my chest.