I feel so lonely, I have the "feeling" that I'm vanishing.. fading away.. I don't have any feelings in fact.. any emotions.. I've become a **** robot.. just a machine being on autopilot.. it's not life.. it's hell! yeah.. I don't think hell is that place with fire and devils in it.. I think hell is just dreadful emptiness.. it's nothing! and it's endless.. endless pain.. endless.. emptiness.. whatever.. endless nameless..