GhostOfSociety
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You can be a good friend to someone, you can be kind to people and they in return can offer a gift of companionship, a warmth, however, just like the sun, that warmth disapates, leaving you in the cold to endure the isolating effects of abandonment. Even the one's closest to you, the ones who you believed would value you enough to have the courtesy to hand you a proper goodbye so you can have a peace of mind, won't...And it becomes something you keep telling yourself won't happen the next time. But eventually you come to a realisation that they'll all abandon you in the end. They all perhaps get bored or find a better companion inevitably.However my will to have a companion still lingers in my fading dreams to remind me of the meaning of happiness. The meaning of true connection. Yes i admit, you can find happiness from within, but the disfigured truth presents itself to me, we are social animals. The very thing that i am I do not wish to be. If i could remove this desire, this longing to be closer to another who would fulfil my needs for long lasting companionship then yes, i would. I would be willing to give anything for such a thing. To remove that human side to remain nothing more than a preoccupied organism. I am getting ahead of myself, forgive me. I know not what the future entails for those who remain in the cold for too long. I have never had the luxury of retreating into the warmth of another. So it plagues me this question... Lonliness is no longer just an emotional response, it can become a physical pain, and i try to ignore it, but that's difficult since no matter where you go, it's always there. What i am confused about is why some can be so cold, it is as if their human side to which once aired warmth was merely a mask. I suppose we all wear masks in some way or another? some of us, don't even realise it. just don't understand anything anymore.The love to which I have to offer is abundant yet unused. why is it there? what is its purpose if no one wants it? I don't know anymore... :'( I have no one...