Hi guys. I have been here on the boards for a while but never really had the courage to share what I've been going through.
My life feels empty and meaningless. I've been struggling with depression on and off. I got married about two and a half years now and many things have changed. I feel that I'm becoming more depressed and withdrawn. It feels like I'm just too ill equipped to handle my husband's expectations of me.
My husband have grown distant. I sense that he is going through some struggles of his own but he would never talk things out and share them with me. I feel abandoned and alone in this marriage.
He's been saying very hurtful things to me lately. He has called me stupid and useless among other things. He has also mentioned that I should thankful he married me because no one else would have done so and he's doing other men a favor by "saving" them from ending up from someone as worthless as me. Those words have really cut me deeply. I don't know how to make him happy anymore as I've lost all energy. There are times I do wish that I don't have to wake up anymore.
I'll have to stop here because I find that it's too upsetting for me write anything more.
My life feels empty and meaningless. I've been struggling with depression on and off. I got married about two and a half years now and many things have changed. I feel that I'm becoming more depressed and withdrawn. It feels like I'm just too ill equipped to handle my husband's expectations of me.
My husband have grown distant. I sense that he is going through some struggles of his own but he would never talk things out and share them with me. I feel abandoned and alone in this marriage.
He's been saying very hurtful things to me lately. He has called me stupid and useless among other things. He has also mentioned that I should thankful he married me because no one else would have done so and he's doing other men a favor by "saving" them from ending up from someone as worthless as me. Those words have really cut me deeply. I don't know how to make him happy anymore as I've lost all energy. There are times I do wish that I don't have to wake up anymore.
I'll have to stop here because I find that it's too upsetting for me write anything more.